Numb

I cant feel anything...nothing at all... 

I don't feel like it's bothering me.... I don't feel like it's a thing that I should really know. The "me" that I used to be, would have been really angry and mad. But.... this time I felt nothing. Why?? is the red signal blinking edi? 

I have always wanted to know the whole truth. I have always wanted to know earlier on...n not the last one to know. Yes, I got it all mixed up and was so blurred n confused till today.... The truth... it was shown in front of me... but I felt nothing. Nothing... is alright that it is nothing.....? Or is it because... it is no longer in my priority list? 

Sharing

Fuuuu....... sharing it out is not as hard as I thought it would be. 

Jesus loves us more than everything. There's owes a reason, why God put us here in our position. Why he wanted us to go through so many things, so many experiences that we thought we will not get through it before. By holding unto Him, we did get through... rite? This is why.... we must share all of our testimonies and life experiences... You will never know when it is the time to share, but you will know when there's a voice in your heart telling you to do so. 

I'm glad that i'm able to help (not as in action, but in prayer and advice), to guide, and to support someone who is in the same situation that I used to be. 

Last time, I used to ask God..... why am I so rebellious when I was young, why am I so stupid that I got fooled around, why am I stuck in this family, why am I having such a complicated and very dramatic situation. There's a reason... With Him, I'm able to go through it... He heard our pains, he heard our sufferings, he heard our cries, he stays with us and never abandon us, he heals us, above all else, HE LOVES US. This is why he will surely protect your family, relatives and friends. There's a reason why you are going through some things, he wanted to use you too! just like he used me... my life, although there's a lot of ups n downs, He still loves me and never gv up on me. 

When you're feeling depressed, just talk to God. He will comfort and answer you... it might not be immediately but remember God has his own timing or God has a better plan for you. When it is the time, you'll see the wonders of God coming into your life! 

A Good Excuse

LOL!~ I finally understand why I love dramas and movies so much.. XD

Indeed a good excuse... haha~

You will get to learn a lot of things from drama or movies. Like CSI, you get to know some of the diseases or techniques they used in laboratories. In Material Queen, you get to have a free revision of what is Marfan Syndrome. In Da Jang Geum, you cannot mix n match vegetables and fruits or herbs as you like... etc etc...

Even my students get the examples from me in classes through all these dramas. They tend to remember it easily. Haha~ So, I must continue to watch more movies/dramas in the future??

YEAH!

Moody Day

I think my weaknesses are getting more n more obvious. Oh gosh!

I realised I can easily cry when people starts complaining or scolding me for some reasons that are actually not under my control or my direct control. T.T how ar? Been experiencing it since Feb 2010 till today... good news or bad news?

I can be calmed when those things happen but right after that.... my heart is aching, mood feel so down, and I can't focus. I know Happiness is a choice... I can choose to be moody or I can choose to be Happy. I know I should choose to be Happy all the time and think positively.

The old me... I used to be the one who is tough n never shed a tear but now... what have I become? Is it becoming better that I dont get angry easily? Is it better that I dont go scold people? Is it better that I get hurt than other ppl getting hurt? Oh well.... it's so obvious isnt it? Of course, it's better to make other ppl  happy and make them feel comfortable. I shouldn't be writing and spitting out my rantings here.. Oh crap!

This is what you call.... writing to heal.... yes, i'm trying...

Thank God

Thank God I hurt my finger this afternoon n not coming sat. Haha.. You must be thinking this gal must be real stupid. How can 1 still be thankful for getting hurt. Well, I'm one here.. Haha. Not stupid but clever! XD

Somemore, it's my left hand index finger. If it's my right hand then I won't be able to hold my tambourine. If it's my right hand, I won't be able to hold the fan. If it's my right hand, I won't b able to write. If it's next sat, i wont be able to things smoothly. Not even dancing with my tambourine. Cos you'll be able to see an index finger with white plaster sticking out weirdly n blood oozing out staining the plaster. =D See! There's so many things to be thankful of. Really thank God!

I bet you'll laugh at me if u know how I cut my finger. Heehee~