Checked

~ I am a HAPPY girl ~

Giza dance:
- Joy to the world
- God rest ye merry gentlemen
- Jingle Bell Rock
- What time is it

Christmas Drama Dance:
- sad/despair/emotional

Johor Christmas Mission Dance:
- Cong po sui dao zi you

LOL~ It's all checked! Nice...


Remaining task:

Captain's costume:
- Tailored made.
- Hat - pending
- Badges - Bought/but not up on costume yet.
- Landyard - Handmade (done)

Sewing patient scrubs: 
- Cut =the old leper cloth into halves
- 6 strings - 2 done, left 4. =) happie-nya~ (but 1 string, 1 hour... so I need another 4 hours! great~)
- Pending: Wash & it's ready to wear!

Dancers Costume:
- Pending..


Hohoho!~ It'a almost done! =D

Who Understands Me?

This question kept on popping in my head....

Who? Who understands me?

I've tried my very best to make sure everyone is happy with everything... I know their situation/condition well but other than this... wat else can I do? Is there anyone out there who understands me? I dont want to complain... n I did not. I did not say NO or give excuses or complaints that I have too much things to do and dont want this and that.

When you show me faces, do you know how I felt? It hurts me.. I dont like ppl who talks about me at the back. I dont like people complaining at the back. If you dont like it, tell me.. if you wan to change, tell me... if I can change something, i'll try my very best to change. But if I cant, will you try to understand me and try to tolerate? Not one but few... it's like slicing my heart into slices.

I know it really test me a lot.... or mayb it's a lesson for me to learn. To learn to be better... to learn to be more patience.. to learn to love more.

I am thankful to ppl who has helped me a lot... Really thankful. You know who you are... thank you so much.

I am sad and hurt but when I got home, something was shining/blinking so brightly at the top of the staircase. =) so happy that it actually cheered me up a little... but tears flow down when I got back in my tiny little space.. He Comforted me in some ways... He's the Only One who understands me well.. No one knws how I feel deep in my heart, but He knew all.. The question has been answered... He is the Only One.

"Think about His love. His immeasurable love is for us, for you and me."

Convent

I'm proud of my Franciscan friends.. Time flies~ 9 yrs in a blink of an eye. I do felt that we're getting old.. (i mean our age, but still young at heart. hahaha~ altho, some became mommy edi). lol~

Some became doctors, some engineers, some lawyers, some artiste, some lecturers/teachers, some dunno~ too many.. cant rmb! So proud of them.... All became more n more prettier each and every day. All u can see is..... sexay lady!~ XD

While I was browsing through some webpage, youtubes, look what I found! A very nice song... although I'm not very into Malay song.. but this one.. definitely a *thumbs up* song. I miss listening to her voice actually.. She used to sing Mariah Carey's song (cos that's her idol), she's one of our vocalist.. A soprano voice, can b soft, distinct, & powerful!

Following is the youtube video:

Another Franciscan vocalist, my senior, wow~ she's so famous among the orang putih now.. haha!

I miss The Bestarians, I miss SFC, I miss everyone in KK and I also miss KK's foods... ='(

Anyone coming? wanna tapao some food for me?? Errmm... I want dumplings, durian/choc swiss roll cakes, etc etc.

Sorry

I am so sorry if i've mistreated/scolded/forgetting/neglecting or talking to you in a manner which is improper to you. Very very very sorry. Please forgive me.

It's been a very very bz week for me. I admit that I'm very blur/confused/sleepy/short tempered recently. I apologize!

I know i've hurt someone when she asked me that very same question. ='( she was so upset. She said sorry to me.. She sounded so sad. I am so sorry. At first, I dont feel like replying her msg (cos I got very annoyed and irritated by her after 3 days of calls), but Holy Spirit rebuked/scolded me. Felt so uncomfortable and hurt at the same time. After 16 hours, i replied her msg. Realizing that a word of comfort is very important to her.

If it happens to you too, I just wanted to say I am sorry. I dont mean to. Mayb i've been a lil harsh without realizing it. Please forgive me.

Wish to say NO

Sometimes I really wish to say NO.

No for everything.

No for every favour ppl asked for.

No for all the tasks that have been given to me.

No for putting on a mask.

No for being so kind.

No for taking all the responsibilities when it is initially none of my business.

Why should I be so kind? Why should I help everyone? Why should I bombard myself with all these stresses? Why should I be the only person doing all of this?

I know I know.. ppl will gv me the same answers. I know I know I KNOW!

How I wish ppl will be considerate enough.. how I wish ppl will be kind enough to help... how I wish ppl will be polite... I wish ppl know how to communicate well. I did not say I'm always correct.. I'm perfect.. or I know everything but be kind in all ways pls.

I'm worried, I'm stressed up, I'm hurt.. I've thought of abandoning everything, leave this place and go home.

But God is graceful to me... He knew I'm suffocating.. I told him I dont feel like doing anything last nite. I thought I cant slp well... I thought my mind will be blank. I never ever thought that He will gv me a sweet dream. An unexpected dream... A dream that doesn't relate to any of my tension. A vacation, a happy moment to be remembered, a dream that actually cheer me up with a joke... Thank you so much.