He's hinting me

Fully describe me..... Now I knw why God wants me to listen to this song these few days. The way God speak to me. =)

Listen to Our Hearts

As you all have heard, as you all have seen in the news. People from another country had invaded to my homeland. Although it's far from my city (about 400km - 6 hours 25 mins drive / 1 hour flight), but we are all united as one. I don't know what to say about our Government or those people who claim our homeland as their land. BUT can't they listen to what we want? We are the citizen who live there. We are the one who grew up there. It's not up to their decision, whose land it belongs to. 

All we want is just peace. Since it's been ages we've called ourselves Malaysian and we are proud to have live harmoniously together with different ethnics and races peacefully for decades. So, let us be. We owned the land. Not people who have not live or grow up there, not people who suddenly invade and claim its theirs, or people who said they will do this and that but all turn up to be empty promises. I pray that my friends and all who live nearby the towns/island to be safe. I pray that all Sabahan be united as one and not be shaken by any parties. May the Lord reign in Sabah and reclaim our freedom from all darkness. 

Time to Renew and Refresh

Happy New Year!!~

A New Year.... It's time to be Renewed & Refreshed!

Loving this song this morning.... How I love you by Deeper album, Planetshakers.

verse

I want to know You
I want to hear Your voice
I want to feel You, more than before

I want to touch You
I want to see Your face
I want You Jesus, more than before

prechorus

More of You, Jesus I want more
More of You, my Lord

chorus

Take me deeper than I've been before
Take me further, God I long for more
Take me higher than I've been before
Jesus I want more, Jesus I need more

bridge/ending

More of You
More of You, Jesus
More of You
I need more of You
(repeat 3x, ending 2x)

In everything you do, think of God first. He's the Centre of My Life and He should be yours too! 

Without Him, I'm nothing.. without Him, I'm lost... without Him, my life is meaningless. 

Jesus, I want to love you more and more each and everyday and each every step I take. 

A special day

It must have been a special day today..

Gave some advises to two different people this morning. Hmm.. They were like a sudden conversation. Have I serve my purpose of the day? or more to come for today?

I feel grateful to God that I'm still of good use. Told God plenty of times or should I say all the time, to use me.. Lord, I'm here.. I belongs to you.. use me as you wish. Thank you, Lord.

Thank God...

I Love you my lord, only you that I need. When I see your face, my life has been changed. Thank you, Lord Jesus.

New Chapter

2012 is a brand new year, a new phase of my life... A year of preparations and challenges that will help me grow/walk further in my ministry & life.

There are so many things to do this year... even before 2011 ends, my schedule has been filling up with assignments, dates, and missions. Now I know why God planted me here..... instead of KK. He's expanding me. Although i've fallen previously but if we hold on unto Him, he's willing to change your life! Changing your life into the life that He has prepared for you! Thank God~

This year onwards: My life will be colourful! I will hold on unto Him until He bless me. I will equip myself and overcome all challenges. The challenges/obstacles are the things that will open up a new door for me to see a new chapter of expansions, nearer to my paradise in Heaven. Hooray!

I wanted to say: I am READY!

*******

Today is the first day of returning and giving tuition. 2 hours just passed like a second (nah.. that's too fake. hahha... it feels like half an hour only).

Happy to hear that majority of them passed their Science and some or half (i dunno - din ask the whole class) got 75 and 80 above. Not bad huh? =) FYI, they are a bunch of students who love to talk when you're talking, love to play while u're still teaching, love to ask a lot of unrelated questions. Well, they are the one who paint my life.. =D

On the other way round, it's time for me to do revision again for biology. My gosh...... it feels like a sleeping pill to me. why oh why? is it bcos it's the first chapter? Reading bible is far more better than tat... or should I say... it's been a long time since I last read biology (somemore, it's the fundamental of biology) **yawn**

Hmmm.. time to change! time to create some interesting things from it..... imagination! I'm relying on you! Long way to go~ Jiayou bah!

His Message

"Silver & gold I do not have, but what I have I give you." Acts 3:6

This is what Meng Yee shared today during the offering session. Yes, I do not have anything with me. I do not have silver or gold or cash but I have time, I have love, I have me. He's like hinting me.. give me your time, spend your all in me.. (the first hint during that gathering). In prayer, I pray... I gave my time to you. Use it as your will.

John 18:1-27 (shared by Joseph)

First question - What's the most unforgettable downfall you ever had in your life?

I was thinking... not very hard.. i knew all about it but I dont feel like sharing it. It's just too shameful. The story is toooooo long. I wish I do not need to bring it up ever in my life (but i'm sure when it's time, when God really wants to use it, I will need to do so...sighh... I gv up.. I gv my all to You).

My life.. it's really alike to what Joseph had mentioned. Alike with Peter's life. Previously, I was a very obedient girl but my life changed when I got a lil rebellious, a lil overconfident, a lil too clever, having a lil thinking of my own. Thinking that I will be forgiven all the time, thinking it's not too wrong, thinking I'm still as good as before. Just like how Peter was in his life...

But denial.. it's like mine. I denied the truth, twisting it a lil, thinking it's orite all the time previously. The shame after the incident.. I tried to hide it (the truth), I tried to climb back, but more problems came... my trust in others, I lost it. My faith in christianity, I lost it. When all things happened around me and my family... I'm drown in pitch black well.

Been lost for almost 1-2 years, God looked for me again. He had never gv up my life. Just like how He looked for Peter when he got back to his origin place. Jesus asked,"Do you love me?". It's like... he's asking me at the same time... "Do you love me?". Again during that sharing, I felt him... He's asking me that very same question. "Do you truly love me more than these?" "Feed my lambs", "Do you truly love me?" "Take care of my sheep", "Do you love me?" "Feed my sheep". I knew deep in my heart, he's talking to me.

I've been running away for too long... Been trying to play hide and seek. But I can no longer run from Him. He's there.. telling me now and then. I'm afraid, I know nothing.. I'm scared, I have no ability that i'm proud of. I'm weak... I'm no one. But He kept telling me... i'm made strong in Him. I'm His love one that he had never give up. I'm a sinner but by His grace, I'm saved.

I give thanks for your grace and mercy.

Rejoice~

A testimony that i've seen quite some time ago but it continue to touch me once again.. Be blessed through their life testimony, be blessed by God and grab the opportunity now! God Bless You and I love you all~

Never stop believing.

I've been struggling whether I should blog this out o not.

It's not the time to keep on telling people that "it's the time".... "it wont help much".... "we know edi de la"... "he wont live long".  Who are you people? who are you to determine what God will do next? I'm quite frustrated actually... why cant you just build up ur faith n fully trust in the Lord? Why cant you just persistently beg God? Why cant you just pray to God all the time? You of little faith! Change! Pray undoubtedly! It's not the end yet! You are not God. You dont make the decision on behalf of God! Dont judge or make your own assumptions based on what you've seen and heard previously. God do things differently. He's wiser than all man on earth.. He created us, he turns water into wine, he raised the dead! Who are you?

I'm sorry if you said I am indirectly/directly scolding you. I believe in God.. I put my faith in Him, I put all my trust/hope in God n not in man/technology/doctor. God is the Best Healer! Don't say I'm childish or immature... This is what God teaches me.. Be still, I am God. I am the beginning and the end. He will do things in His way... a way that man will never fathom.

Kevin himself is very strong now. Why are u so weak? He said the tumour has bcome smaller, then why do u stop believing/doubting in God. see God's miracle.. altho it's small but you'll never know what will happen next. It's God's decision not yours. So, just keep on praying and believing. Kevin did not stop to ask God for healing, why would you stop? Arent you suppose to keep on supporting? Why waste ur time on being emotional, thinking of negative things, or the worst outcome, when it's not even the end yet? Why not invest your energy in praying/proclaming positively?? so STOP your mind from wandering all around now. PRAY! Pray until something happen! Never ever stop believing! Have faith in God, my dear friends.


http://chellrein.blogspot.com/2011/02/hes-gift-from-god.html

Promise of a Lifetime

Love this song so much.

Reminder

I was confused with certain things... felt tired to go on with another thing... I am reminded in some ways that I shall seek Him first and not worry about tomorrow. But somehow, I am still lost in my directions... lost in a way that I myself dont know what is actually happening to me... it seems like.. my mind is blank. I couldnt think although I know deep down somewhere there's an answer..it's just that I couldnt recall what it is.

Felt helpless... felt so miserable.... felt like I'm storing in more n more and dunno who to talk to. I dont know where should I seek for the answer. Suddenly, I was reminded once again, pray! Prayer is the key to everything. It's like a snap of finger... suddenly awake! I've totally forgotten that prayer helps in this very matter that I'm super helpless with. How can I only remember that prayer makes a difference in ministry but forgotten that He also works in our own lives and ppl surrounding us? How foolish am I....

Being a leader, I only remember on how to comfort my darlings.... remember to teach them the right way but forgotten my own life. Somehow, a messenger reminded me... that I also need help from God, need someone(or God) to comfort from time to time, need a shoulder to lean on, need a heart to heart talk... by this way, I will b encouraged, I will be comforted, I will be able to reconstruct my thinking. Thank God... for reminding me through some ways.

Yes, you are the Greatest! You know my heart well... you know my future...you know what I need... pls continue to guide me, O Lord.

CPM: Exit 出口 Successful~

I would like to thank all of my dancers, partner and CPM production crew. We've made it~ It was a successful and memorable production. Without one of you, things will be different. You've played a BIG part in making the event and of course the biggest and most important player is always Our Most High God and Holy Spirit. We alone are nothing but in God, we are everything.. His Spiritual flow and touch are the factors that moved all hearts. Thank God!~

I would like to personally thank Billy for enduring all the hardships with me. Doing all the difficult task that I myself could not believe I'm really doing it (cos we usually see those moves dance by all the professional dancers). A big thank you to Eric who choreograph the demon part and understanding the effect that I want...Yuan Qing for assisting Eric and helping me to keep all the demons accesories. Thanks to all small demons (Jeremy, Yuan Qing, Guo Hao & Ah Fai), although you are small demon BUT you are the one that lift the whole drama atmosphere to the climax.. I really thank all of you. Thank you Hosanna & Alix for helping me with the angel part (e.g costumes & ballet shoes) especially transportation. Without both of you, I'm sure all of the dancers will have difficulties with transportation. Both of you have been really understanding.. I'm really grateful. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thanks to all of my lovely angels (Alix, Crystal, Shao Qi,Chu Ling).. you've done well. Your Angelic look is finally in the EXIT. haha~ Thanks to Chu Ling.. I know it's been a lil hard for you. Cos it's a very last minute task..asking you to have an intensive training is really a big burden especially when I'm quite strict. I'm really sorry for pushing you so hard but I'm really grateful and happy that you can do it in a short time. *thumbs up* for you. Good Job!

To all of my dancers: I know I've been quite strict and fierce sometimes and pushing you all to the maximum is really "Sam fu" especially when I pin point people who did not do well. Really SORRY and hope you all will forgive me. Please do not take it into your heart and please smile and talk with me in the future okay?? =) Let's continue to stay like a family okay??

A msg from our producer, brother Kenneth, to all the dancers: Great Job for the spectacular performance. Pray that we can do greater things for His glory. God Bless..

To Liang Siong and Sebrina: Although both of you did not manage to join us in this production, please do not be sad and feel heart broken. We still have a lot of opportunities in the future. You two really did well in the practice, but we do understand that there are some things that we cannot avoid. Do not give up but put your hope in God. He will always open up a way for you when there seems to be no way. Remember this.. I still love both of you. Don't ever say that I've abandoned you..k? Jesus never abandon you, so do I. I'll keep my promise.

Thanks to all other Exit Production crew: You've worked hard! Thanks for all your effort.. Really thank God that I'm part of you all. haha~ We'll do greater things for Him in the future!! All Glory Be to God! Looking forward for Christmas event~

Everyone is tired... so, rest well and drink plenty of water. Weather is REAL HOT recently. Don't get sick. Keep your body in a good health and get ready for God's next plan. ^^

Exit Trailer is OUT!

Hey people..

This is the things that I'm bz with lately. Make sure you check the trailer out. Play it and after you've watched it, reserve your ticket wit me. Call me up or msg me or come n find me. Don't miss out the opportunity. It's a live dance performance with video clips for the whole EXIT production. Can't wait to see you all there! Be there cos I'll be there!

Be strong!

Exit is nearer and nearer as the time goes by...

My heart aches when I heard all sorts of news happening around us. Sprained ankle, car accidents, sickness, body aching, etc etc. Today around 2.30pm, I received a sms saying, "I want cry already, because I wash my shirt hua dao... my leg n body liu xue le, hen tong". I immediately called her up..

On the other end, she was crying terribly.. asking about her condition, she told me her toe nail came off and the side of her body got scratch.. her cries deeply hurts my heart. I comforted her and advice her to get her wound wash & wrap up.

Our Father in Heaven,
I give thanks to you that you have chosen us to hear your calling,
I give thanks unto you that you give us the strength to live on day by day,
I give thanks to you that you help us to create stronger bonds each and everyday, strengthening us in both physically & spiritually,
I pray that, Oh God, it's your will be done and not ours.
Purify and sanctify us, so that You may use us to the fullest in your ministry,
Clease us, Oh Lord, with your blood that you have shed for us.
Nail our sins on the cross, and remember not our sins.
Lead us and guide us into your path with your words and spirit.
I pray that, Oh God, you'll cover us with your blood,
send forth your angels to protect us and our families,
Strengthen us as you have given us the authority and power with your heavenly angels to fight with the princes of air and regain the lost souls.
Here, I submit the dance team into your hands,
Be with us Jehovah, All glory and honour are yours.
In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Be strong my dear brothers & sisters in Christ. Don't cry and give up but stay strong and ask for His comfort. Do not complain but give thanks all the time. He has CHOSEN you, so lift up your cross and walk with Him into the narrow gate to gain the treasure in Heaven.

《EXIT 出口》

Copy from Ann:

A very special production by Creative Production Ministry of PCKL.
A combination of artistic cinematography, still photography, dances & songs.
Yet another great production you won't want to miss.
Follow this link for more Pictures on shooting.

《EXIT 出口》
Date: 29.5.2011 (Sun)
Time: 11:00am-1:00pm / 3:00pm-5:00pm
Venue: Bentley Music Auditorium
           Wisma Bentley Music
           3, Jalan PJU 7/2, Mutiara Damansara,
           47810 Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia.
           Map

More details & behind the scene stories coming up soon!


Let me know, I'll send you an invitation card. :)

Trials

You might have heard a lot of things happening to me lately.. I, myself, did not realize it until one of my close friend told me that she's worried about me cos there's just too much things happening around me. I really thank all of my friends who concerned about me. All I can say is...Arigato Gozaimasu. I'm really grateful to have all of you.

Starting from our dear brother's health to the break-in, sickness (headache, dizziness, flu, nose block, sorethroat, coughing, backache, insomnia) affecting me, dad's injury on the head, newspaper and cooked worm in my lunch, car accident (never thought that I'll have accident right? =) this is my first accident - after 9 years of driving skill..not bad, huh? ^^).. it's just too much. All I can do is give thanks to God and continuously hold unto Him without any doubts.

I believe all these are just trials to test my faith and trust in Him. I believe it's God's plan for me to offer all of my all to Him on last sun too. I initially thought he wanted me to offer what I think the amount is.... but he actually wanted all of my all.. all of my trust and things to live on. Now, without any car, without much money to use or survive for this month, I believe He wanted me to fully trust in Him. 

Why I say without money... it's not because I paid off the accident. No... Initially, I took all of my money from the atm to pay off the accident's summons or etc etc... (after returning from police station, Jacob return it to me without actually telling me he did not pay anything yet but instead he told me everything settled). Without me realizing, I accidentally offered everything and only realized it a day after... haha~ but let me tell you something, I did not regret, I did not worried, I did not blame anyone after the super dramatic day, I still felt surprisingly peaceful.

Last sunday night, Jacob asked why do I seem like there's nothing happening to me at all... like I still can go on with my life without actually showing my ups and downs or things im struggling on. Well, I am not happy in the beginning, not because I'm traumatized by the accident but some other issues, but because I knew I need to worship Him no matter what happened, I started to let go off everything.. Let go of my emotion, let go of my hard feelings, let go of my concern, let go of my disappointment, and be filled with His love, be filled by His presence... In the mid of worshipping Him, He told me... I am your answers. I am the answer for your life. Hold on only unto me...  So, cling on Him no matter what happens. No matter your problem is big or small.. Hold Him tightly and never let go. He will provide everything that you need. He'll do miraculous things for you and me.

**after losing my lappie, I thought I've lost all of my pictures including some memorable ones. Some I've posted in my blog but however, while transporting my prev blog to the current blog, some images are lost and cannot be shown here. While browsing through my hotmail space drive, I found some really memorable pictures - including Connie's pic. She's such a beautiful girl.. wish I can edit and reimport it to that post or a special new post just to remember her? =) Finding these pics are something that comfort me.. hehe~

Things to remember:

- If you are able to cross over the trials, your new chapter of life will begin.

- He's my shelter and comforter, nothing will be against me.

Dance! Dance for Him!

Although I've shared this video before in FB but I still like to share or embed it in here.... I love their dance, the choreography. Their dance really touched one's heart... the energy, the fire, the flow, the gentleness.... everything! I love it... Hopefully, you'll like it too. If you've missed it last time, do enjoy it in here.

Here's a brief description about them. They are christian dance ministry (OMD Mission Dance - Only Jesus Mission Dance) in Korea. They do a lot of performance both on stage and off stage (on the street, etc). You can search for them online or subcribe to their channel in youtube. Their website is www.onlyjesus.co.kr . Do enjoy it as much as I've enjoyed it.

Here's another video that I like too... I love the gentleness, the strength and the emotion that you can feel, the whole story that they portrayed out through their dance.

Christmas 2010

4320 was a success!! 

Indeed it touched a lot of hearts... receiving lots of good comments from all friends. 4320 soundtrack and mugs were sold on 19, 24 n 25 Dec... selling hot like pancakes.

Of cos, I'll never forget my lovely dancers. You all have made me proud... in just a short time (a month to 1.5 mth, i guess..forgot edi), you've successfully learn lots of patterns... half of book 1 if not mistaken and some ballet style. I know I've been a little strict with you all, pls dont keep it in your heart... if I've offended you, I'm sorry. For the guys, you all did great too~ I'm really proud of you all, 14 of you... These 3 days (ROC, Seremban, PCKL), without you all... the performance will not be that awesome. You've put in a lot of effort, sacrificing your time and rest just for practice 2-4 times per week..Without you all on 24th, 30 sets of cd and mugs will not be sold out in 1 hr time. I really appreciate it and I gave thanks to God cos I have you all in the team. Together we shine and Glorify His name... I LOVE YOU ALL!~

Unmeasureable Excitement but Undescribeable Feelings...

19 Dec is around the corner... I'm excited! are you??

This morning I reconfirm my frens' attendance to the event..and guess wat.. 1 more coming! yeah~  4320, it's time for BIG wave! Time for God's work.. can't wait cant wait... Bz preparing, practicing.... although limited space, but Holy Spirit will definitely help us... We will do our Best to Glorify God's name.

Felt a lil stressed actually... pressured to be exact. The new friend I'm inviting (who actually approached me on her own..asking abt the event) is the Ballet teacher/dance studio director...DIRECTOR..O.O!!  I'm happy that she wanted to come and see but at the same time, if my choreography is not that good?? T.T how?? especially the ballet part.... Oh... who can help me? Anyway, I pray that God will do rest of the things... I'll just submit myself to him. (mou ngan tai ar.... scary scary)

Yesterday was the 1st rehearsal, Ps Meng said it was the best ever (for both drama n dance).... A lot of ppl said it's nice... just the chorus part mayb nid to be more sync. siigghhh..... happy that it was good but pressure cos it's not perfect. ='(  After listening to all sorts of plans from Sis Mei Lin, I felt more stress. sobsob.... It's not that I dont want to do it... I knw this is it... it's just that I'm afraid cos I'm not professional enough. I dont have the proper basic, I dont have proper classes before....Or should I just sign up for some classes now to improve myself? sighh...how?

I'm happy with my dancers esp when they manage to learn all the steps & patterns in a very short time but I'm sad when they do not listen to me or do not take things seriously... which causes me nid to repeat again n again for dunno how many times.. sigghh... They are awesome, this I cannot deny...but teenagers.. as you know tends to fool around a lot. sighh~  Oh, God please help me... give me your strength...

Well, trust God is all I need. I do the small parts, He do the BIG part... 4320 Christmas is the day that the Lord hath made!

** This is the day, that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,
     This is the day that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,

     Rejoice.... In the Lord,
     Rejoice.... In the Lord.

     This is the day, that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,
     This is the day that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it.

     This is the Day that the Lord Has MADE!

Everything is Near~

\(~.~)/

Bufday is near... Rehearsal is near... 19 is near... 25 is NEAR too... hehe~
Altho it's just the beginning of the month but it feels like the 25 days in gap are so small that you cant take a long breath to relax. We have to be prepared..we have to be well prepared for the upcoming war... we have to fully utilise all of our energy. We have to.... I dunno, you name it!

hahaha~~ I love December since young... bcos it's my long long semester break...Although now I'm in the working society edi, I still LOVE December.. cos I still can feel the holiday mood. The Christmas mood to be exact. I love all the Christmas celebrations and of cos my birthday too!~ XD (ermm... im not giving you some hints to actually rmb my bufday. It's just that I'm too happy and excited for the christmas event!)

I'm so excited that I've spent RM200 for my dancer's make up last nite. O.O!! I also dunno why I spent so much for just 3 little small things. ='( my purse vomit blood edi.... but the look that I wanted to achieve, is not... that complete yet.. sobsob.. ='''( how? who can help me?? anyone willing to sponsor us? XD I'll be really grateful and will welcome you big big with my hugs?? arms? which one do you prefer? haha~ I will say, hugs for ladies... guys? hmm..high5? XD

oh ya! I seriously need help. I need...make-up artist and hair stylist? haha~~ pro-nya.. I want ppl who knw how to makeup (dramatic look) and ppl who knws how to really braid hair..anyone anyone?? Cos I dont think I can do it all alone. I'll be really tired that 2 days... I need help...help.... and it's a volunteer basis ok? =))

Cheers!!~ I love CHRISTmas... I love to see Big REVIVAL WAVE... I love serving Him.. Muackss~

The reason

Now I know why God want me to approach him...

He needs a direction.. a direction to God. God chose me to guide him. This is it!
But after this, it might be someone else job to follow up. ^^

Rejoice!~ The time is near! Rejoice!
Revival wave... sniff sniff.. I can smell it!!