Tuesday, September 8, 2009

My super weird dream..

Few days ago i hv a weird dream...i hv a super ability (ignoring/escaping/repel from water??). Fighting with some agent and escaping from them. I tot it is weird edi.. who knws this morning, lagi weird. It's actually a very very normal dream..like dreaming about ur future work? but weird thing came in when i nid to withdraw blood from a dead body. Things goes like this....


The guy came in dunno from where..I forget whether he's dead or alive in the first place. As usual, when u r admitted to hospital, blood samples have to be taken from the patients. Most of my lab partners n even my superior is in the ER (i think is ER..or mayb not.. i knw its a room! =P) to do something..(like testing dunno wat.. forget edi) and my job is to fill the blood into the tube which have been withdrawn by my colleague (this is weird too! Normally only 1 or the most 2 medical lab technologist ard a patient). But somehow there's only a little amount of blood collected. So I filled up the three tubes evenly but it was too little. Like a small drop in each tube only. All of my colleagues ( i dunno who r they, i cant rmb.. i just knw there are ppl who shud b my colleague) were staring at me.. n said.. uh-oh, u hv to  withdraw more blood. Somehow, dunno why.. i felt like its my fault for not getting enough blood (??? i oso dunno why. not my fault rite? but im still the one who nid to get the blood =.=). At the very same moment when im trying to fill up the tubes, i think tat's the time they wheeled out the patient or shud i say the dead man. Dunno when he died la...


Colleague said i nid to get the blood again before my superior found out... (normally, after a patient died, there's no nid of collecting blood sample edi la.. no use edi). so, i sneak into my lab again to look for the body. I began my search n found him under a table?? i think so.. haha.. i knw i nid to bend down la. I took his hand... (oopss, it's a cut off arm..dunno why they wan to cut him into pieces..) I got shocked, but i turn his hand n said.. pls la help me.. gv me some blood b4 the boss come. In a second, i managed to get the blood from his veins..(banyak lagi tu! XD) just rite before my superior came in. hahahahaha!! My colleague was so surprised to see me as a newbie, withdrawing blood from the dead corpse in just a second. Nahh... Tat's all abt the climax of my dream la XD.


Another weird thing... Normally a pathology lab is separated from the morgue room but this one... surprisingly, the corpse is wheeled into the lab n put under some metal table without the big big fridge. Besides, all of my lab mates are enjoying their day in the lab like reading books and relaxing after their task (i mean when there's no sample la..) with the corpse hiding somewhere under the table.


This is why i said.. it's a WEIRD dream.. (>.<). i think i just had too much stress/pressure lately. hahaha!

Monday, September 7, 2009

My EBV project....

I knw some of u must be really curious on wat i've actually done for my fyp. Let me brief u a lil on my whole final year thingy..which is really tiring n nonstop (I dont hv any holiday at all lo... not even enjoying my 3 weeks holiday during sem break ='(   ). Im glad tat i got my first choice of project in the very first instance n there's no nid for goin for the 2nd round. hahaha.. So, i got the Epstein-Barr virus project with the title of EBV subtyping in non-Malaysian by using EBNA 2.


Kim (Golden Lotus), my supervisor, was really nice towards us... appreciate it altho she's quite strict and emo sometimes. When she first met us, she explained everything n asking us to provide a small presentation to explain on wat we knw abt the title we have chosen. So, presentation n bla bla bla were made... FYP then started. Getting all the apparatus, cleaning and arranging our things in the lab that we shared with Dr Say's fyp student (lab that can only accomodate 20 ppl max.. taking a step in the lab, feels like earthquake.. so u knw wat i mean? fragile lab~ XD).


Throat washing samples were then collected from the foreign workers in Hytex (thx to Katie for helping to arrange.. thx to my sis n lishi oso for helping). 29 samples were collected from Bangladeshi, Vietnamese, Myanmar, etc etc... (i dont rmb.. i just knw there's a lot of ppl). Asked them to gargle n collect in the tube provided but there's some miscommunication too! haha.. it's so funny.. some dunno how to gargle n they ended up, drinking the solution instead. But dont worry... it's not poisonous. they are all really friendly... n funny too!~ As a token of appreciation, soft drinks were given to them.. (an idea by Katie too.. haha.. thx again!). Other samples were taken by my lab partners.. they met Japanese, Americans, etc etc.. at dang wangi LRT station. ^^


Then... lab work started... preparing PCR mix most of the time in the cabin (Our lab) but doing the PCR n gel electrophoresis in another labs.. Walking here n there, from this block to another block, up and down. There goes most of my half year... tiring, disappointing when i couldnt get the band.. stressed! EBNA2 really gave me a big headache. I coudlnt get any band in my analysed gel. Only smears.. sigh.. All of my lab partners got their band but not mine. Why why why is all in my head. I was so stressed n disappointed... browsing the net for answers.. in the end, Golden lotus agreed to change the primer... but not to a new stock of EBNA2. Is changing from EBNA2 to EBNA3C which can also b used for subtyping.


At last, i got my very first few bands!~~~ yeah... so happy at tat moment but not long after that, samples getting more n more less. Uh-oh.. the amount of samples were not enuf for certain samples.. we're all so worried. haha.. cos we've wasted too much in experimenting n trying to get our bands (our result). Then, more n more ppl are booking for the very limited PCR machines in the lab (competition in booking.. XD). So things are getting more n more complicated...There's so lil time to relax..



After the first sem of FYP, thesis started in 2nd sem. Even more tiring... ur eyes will get more n more blur, headache, and confuse... First, we handed in chapters by chapters once every 2 weeks, then 2nd draft then the final copy. It used so much of my energy n brain cells.. >.< Printed it out yesterday n it cost me RM32.50! (counted lucky la.. at least cheaper than some of my frens =P). Hopefully, my thesis will earn me some good grades... *praying hard*.


Presentation of my project was held last wed (2 sept). Tell u something... I was the luckiest of all... the very first one to present among all the bioscience courses >.< really dunno why am i so so so LUCKY! but at least i get to finish the earliest too! haha.. Prior to the presentation (presentation start at 9am), again we were all so lucky to knw in the very last minute tat we dont hv any laptop for our presentation cos Dr wong did not book it earlier n uncle Ho (dunno from where.. mayb Engineering dept) managed to booked it few weeks earlier. So, ICT dept told us..."we oso hv no choice. Altho it's ur fyp presentation but ur lecturer book it last min n we dont hv any laptop left". So, me n mei chien went to 3rd flr to look for Dr wong to ask her..but who knws she din arrived yet. Luckily, Dr tang (our chairperson for fyp presentation) had arrived. We discussed n went out to look for laptop. Luckily in the very very very very last minute (8.55am), Wai Kit managed to borrow a laptop from S block ( the furthest n lonely block of our campus which reside more closely to TARC than ours). Phewww... luckily!


During the presentation, i was so nervous... bcos i hv Dr Say, Dr Tang n Dr Mohd as my panel. Ppl said i hv a very good presentation skill.. but i dunno to which extend it is good. Frens said i answered very well but i dont even knw the real answers.. haiz.. (mayb they are just comforting me..it's ok. i got it~). First question given was given by Dr Tang: Why is it only Type 1 EBV in certain countries and type 2 in certain countries? (This one i knw! haha.. prepared it days b4) 2nd ques by Mohd Abdel: Wat is the significance of this study? (again, i knw! but.. dunno why, he seems like dont really accept my answer n wan a more concrete answer instead. or bcos he dont even understand me?? p.s: he is an African. communication problem mayb. XD) Ques by Dr Say: How did u amplify EBNA3C and how did u get different bands for different types? Why different types hv different bands? Why is it type 1 hv this band and type 2 have this band?? Why u get this molecular weight?? There are a few more ques by Dr Say n Dr Mohd but i cant recall edi... These were the questions that left a big mark on me.. Dr say's question really did gv me a big "?" on my head cos i really dunno how. SIGH... i was stunned by his questions. Making me panicked at that moment. About 20 pairs of eyes staring at me...waiting for my answers. Gosh! i really dunno how to answer but i still tried. Just simply tembak la..wat else... Finally, Dr say let go of me..


n NOW, it's finally over but final exam is coming nearer.. Shud i b happy? sigh.... staring at my mountain pile of notes, makes me dizzy n headache... @.@ I dont even knw which one to start with.. too many!! Some i dont even hv any idea on wat its actually talking abt.. haha.. esp Medical Genomics. Others like Virology, Pharmacology and Oncology are just too much to memorise! pathways, virus names, genes, the name of the medicine (O.o!!) I think the simplest of all is Interpersonal communication la... but still nid to memorise the keywords.. sigh.. a slightly different word in the point means a whole diff thing. @.@ how am i goin to endure this?? HELP ME!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

Grateful for a few people...

There's so many things happening lately... and i've reached my limit. Crashing down... crying hardly n so uncontrollable over my emotions. But there were some frens of mine who have really helped me, adviced me, n guided me. Some things are out of my control... i dont hv much choice but to obey. It isnt about fairness... or i did not think about fairness. I've did my very best... n after thinking n listening to some advice from my fren, n trying very hard to listen n think abt wat God wan me to do... i've finally come to a decision. I'll let go of everything... EVERYTHING! and forgive ppl who hv backstabbed, or sins against me...

Matthew 18:21-22

21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"     22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times." 
I will overcome this test with joy n not hatred... No matter how bad ppl treated me, no matter how rude they are... i'll be more n more patience. For i hv the strength given by Him. I'll be as generous just like what He had been in the past. However, I wont only be generous but also a cheerful giver.. i will not hesitate and regret what i've let go/given/bless others. For i knw, He will be pleased and the best is yet to come from Him. Here, i would like to sincerely thank my leader and a special fren of mine who tried to gv me jokes and advice, Jacob for supporting me and my decision when im superbly down and hurt; Kong for supporting n cheering me up when Im so so so STRESSED with my education thingy.. THANK YOU GUYS!!!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

My last memory of her...

Last wednesday (29 July 2009), i saw her smiling with something new n shining on her nose. I played with her, trying to touch her new nose piercing.. it's really beautiful. In her room, me, wan n she were discussing abt the ice breaker..whether o not to play the game that she had thought of but me n wan said "It's not that much fun. why dont we play heart attack?". After a few thinking, she made her mind... Cell group started, ice breaking time... we played heart attack. It was so funny to see our leader, Kevin's response a lil slow. The way he stare at the cards being thrown out by others..so near to the table. Connie kept on saying,"Eh, dont put ur face so near eh.. later if u lost, u dance ya!". We all agreed but he just laugh n smile there... It was a happy moment we shared together in the house.


After cell group meeting, we went for dinner... on the way, we talked n laughed in the car..so cheerful. After dinner, while chit-chatting... we talked nonstop. Some by pairs, some all together... there's one that i remembered. Because of sunday service is in the morning which is different from our church service in hometown, they couldnt wake up on time. This is because they needed to wake up at least 1.5 hrs earlier to put on makeup. So, we all thought of some solutions. Mei ling suggested that they stay over in Subang 2 so that they can wake up a lil late.. but they said..too many things to bring lehh... So, i suggested that they put on the make up a day earlier.. left it there whole nite.. no nid to clean it the next morning, so they'll just need a lil time to get ready. We all laughed.. Another solution came up, do their make up in the car.. but then, if Stephanie suddenly stop, make up will go stray esp eyeliner.. again we laughed. There was so much laughter that nite. We're all so happy n talked so much..


It's just too sudden when i got a call from Wan's mother at 11.40pm on thurs nite, asking whether im asleep, whether she had bothered me.. of cos i said no.. at first she sounded so calm, but there's something in her voice that is different. So, i asked,"aunty, what is it??". Aunty replied by saying,"Connie is in the hospital. She had an accident. Wan is in the hospital now, and 1 hour plus had past and no news from the doctor yet. Can you please go over to see Wan tml morning??She cried and is worried abt Connie's condition." I told her i will and dont worry. After the call ended, i started to send sms to my sis and Kevin, wrote a msg in FB, asking for prayers... At the same time, Brian was actually chatting with me in msn, so i told him the same thing, asking for prayers too. At the same time, I had a feeling that i must go to the hospital.. So, i started to look for cars..but because it's already midnite, not much ppl with car who is still online. So I asked Wuen,"U there? u have car? can i borrow?" but Wuen replied saying no cos she has given her car to her bro. She asked where do i nid to go, and i told her. She then said, "I ask Nicky." Nicky then asked me wat happen.. while in the mid of conversation, Kevin called and asked where am i, do i nid transport.. Thank God that he called. While waiting for him, i got a lot of calls from people all over the place. At 12.30am, he arrived at MU and we reached the hospital around 12.45am (if not mistaken). My sis had arrived but they were all waiting outside the Emergency Room at the road side. They said nobody can go in.. only the Guy's mother is inside now.


After waiting for a while, i asked the Guy's sister whether she can help and asked whether we, as the closest to the gal, can go in and get some news from the Doctor. She helped, and at last the security allow only one of us to go in. Wan managed to go in the quickest but she came out bursting with tears after a second. Instead, me n my sis went in... At the moment we saw her, she was in one room.. with neck braces and oxygen hose in her mouth. She was unconscious..we tried to call her by name but there's no response. After a while, the doctor came and asked who are we...telling us that she needed operation on her head and parent's signature is needed. But we told him, the parent is in the airport waiting to get the earlier air ticket to fly over. So, i asked whether i can sign it for as a guardian. The doctor, directly rejected me saying they will wait..if condition gets critical, they will sign it for her n push her for operation...There's so little i can do for her that time. After a long period, 2nd doctor asked again who can sign for her... this time i managed to ask her whether i can sign for her as Guardian. She then said yes but only if the parent appointed me as the Guardian. So, i made a quick call n told the doctor her mum appointed me as the Guardian edi..


While waiting to sign for the operation, the 1st Doctor came again saying... Go to the waiting room.. dont stay here. We'll sign it for her... but this time i dont really trust him anymore.. I did not go far but stay somewhere nearby to see for signals from the 2nd doc. the 2nd doc explaining to me all the details of the operation..telling me the worst outcome. She said that the worst outcome is she may be paralysed in the sense that her reflex n response will be slowed compared to normal. I asked whether she will be able to fully recover and she said yes but it all depends on her condition after the operation. Then, i signed.. but they took a long time to prepare all the things.. at 3am, i went with Connie to the neuroscience building for operation. Waited for her outside the operating theatre for 4 hours..while waiting, there's a malay guy sleeping on the floor inside the waiting room. i was scared  at first but i hv no choice. After hours passed, Kevin arrived and acc me to wait for her. At 7.40am, she was wheeled out n sent to the ICU. again, i needed to wait before i can actually go in and see her again. Around 8 something, the nurse said i can go in and see her... The nurse told us, the doctor is not here yet and they couldnt tell us anything. After i asked a few question, nurse said.. all the instrument installed on her looks stable and it seems not that critical. So, i was relieved and agreed on the nurse's advice to go and have breakfast while waiting for the doctor. However, on our way out for breakfast, we received a call from the hospital.


We rush back and met the doctor. The doctor refused to tell me anything at first.. but after i kept on asking and asked wat's the worst outcome, he then answered me saying her condition is very critical and parents needed to be here as soon as she reached. So, we waited for her mum and my sis to arrive. When her mum arrived with her ex, three of us went in together. Doctor immediately talked to us, telling us the details of her condition.


The doctor said she suffered brain injuiry and when she was admitted to the hospital, her brain was already showing weak signals and she's unconscious. Due to her bleeding in the brain, pressure arised causing obstruction to the blood flow into the brain. No blood flow, means no oxygen in the brain. Lack of oxygen even for seconds will cause the brain cells to die. When the brain cells died, means brain died cos brain cells do not regenerate. In order to survive, a person must have 2 important organs which are the brain and heart. But since, the brain is dead, he said she will not survive for long...now she still survive is because of her heart . He also told us that, she shows no sign of improvement and before and after the operation, her brain did not show any signal at all and her heart is getting weaker.  Besides brain injuiry, he told us that she oso had some internal bleedings like lungs and other organs. He said that he had already tried their very best to hold on her life by using drugs to the max and equipment to support her. He then explained why brain will bleed.. He said, brain is a very very soft organ and the skull is very hard. When there is an impact, the brain will crushed to the skull causing itself to bleed. He did not said that they consumed alcohol, he did not assumed that they are speeding... cos he explained even 90km/hr will cause a very very big impact. So, do not misunderstand... After listening to the doctor, i asked whether there's any slight chances for her to regain conscious. He told us from his experience, there's none survivor and usually this type of cases, they will not send them for operation if they are old. It was because she's still young, they tried to save her. After listening to all his details, we all burst into tears..


I went out and hardly tell the others who have reached the hospital... calls were made to ask her relatives to reach asap. I do not knw how long will she survive but we all prayed for God's miracle to happen. However, God took her back at 9.10pm, away from pain and suffer....


We will always remember her in our hearts, her laughter, her crazy ideas and her jokes...Yes, it is too sudden but we have to be strong cos she wouldnt wan us to be sad n mourn for her. For she is with the LORD now, happier than before with no worries and pain.


In loving memory of Connie Yap S.M. (19 Oct 1990-31 July 2009)

Monday, June 8, 2009

A lucky thief!

I once chased after a thief when i was in form 3 n fortunately i got my phone back. On 7th June 2009 afternoon, i've just told Ps. Meng about this case and who knws... at 4am of 8th June, a thief tried to climb up to my room's window which is located on the 13th floor. He's such a brave thief to climb up so high. Here, i salute u thief! BUT....Unfortunately for him, im still awake n his torchlight's light which shines into my room got my attention. I was so surprised to see lights which looks like the light of the cars passing by houses which located at the side of the road. Eh, it's 13th floor high and it automatically struck my mind tat its not car but thief. So, i automatically sat up n looked at him. By judging at the position he stood, i cant actually push him down wit my broom cos :

1) he's standing the back of the middle window;

2) if i walk across my room to get the broom, he will surely see me edi n of cos he will ran off b4 i could do so.

So, instead of pushing him, i scolded loudly : UI!!!! APA KAU BUAT???!!!


He then jumped off from the bar to the corridor n ran off. The miracle thing is.... my roommate still slp soundlessly until i touched her n tell her tat there's a thief just now but after "har.. ohh...ok.." from her, she then slp back again like nothing happens. She's super funny man. I bet she wont rmb a thing tml morning. I remembered tat the thief wore a cap n stripe shirt. Should b a malay if not mistaken. Im sure he's not white or yellow. If and only if i have the guardhouse number, i would hv called them n ask them to block tat guy and search for him. Stupid management!!


First thing in the morning, im going to complain to the management. Why is there thief growing in PV?? They have ordered the security guard to ask us to show our resident pass at the entrance and there's a need for access card to access each block. So, how can a thief enter a PV block if there's strict double security like wat he implement in the daytime or evening time?? How can a thief enter our block at 4am when there's no one entering our block with access card at this hour?? Have u ever seen a lot of ppl entering PV at 3.30 or 4am?? I really dunno how good is their security... or is the thief from the same gang of security guard?? or maybe the thief is PV's tenant. Tat's really bad....haiz.  Secondly, Im goin to complain to the owner and persuade him to install bars on our window. I dont care... this will must be DONE!!


I knw im so fierce tat i can actually scold n chased after a thief. I even taught my sis on how to treat their thief last time. hahaha... If i were to be in her house and in her condition, i will surelly hit the guy's  hand which is in between the window glass. Must HIT it HARD!! I wont mind breaking those windows n hurt his hand. But my case here is i cant actually push him down from 13th floor. Or else, tml's paper headline will be "The first dead man in PV: A thief being push by A gal from 13th floor". XD  By the way, i felt lucky tat i din slp yet at this hour... or else, my roommate's laptop will b gone, mine gone... my labwork n my thesis gone! I'll b mad if my document really gone. Really lucky indeed!!!~


For the Lord is my SHEPHERD!!~~~ He will surely protect me~ YOSH!!



Sunday, March 22, 2009

Crazy life in KL

Toxic assignment, presentation, midterm test + haema test + FYP shocking results + Golden lotus's nagging = BIG pressure + CRAZY decision making.


On the 20th March, me, roommate (laysze), tien, ting n wai went for dinner in Tak Fuk, kepong. We have crabs, prawns, man tao & Tofu as our dinner.

Food & port dickson pics can be located from the photo album.

Gals who dont knw how to eat crabs... Tien is super funny. She hold the crab with her palm (scared tat it will fly away??) and Laysze is trying hard to teach her how to crack it open after learning it.


Next, a guy who tried to snatch man tao from a crab. So hungry meh?? the crab oledi die lo... no body some more. Even dead oso cannot eat mantao. So pity...


After finish eating the whole thing (10.40pm).... Suddenly, one of them came up with a suggestion. W: "Come, let us go to Port Dickson". Others: "Oohhh sure!! why not? never been there b4." B4 goin to PD, some stop by at home to change clothes n shoes. In the end, we arrived PD at 1.30am...


Some practice how to b lesbian, some showing off their strength by carrying other ppl, some just sat down n staring the blacky blacky sky & sea (cos no stary stary nite), some recall n play their childhood game, some compete with each other in a 100m race, and some planted their feet in the sand. The night just go on n on...wu liao ppl still go on with their wu liao things. After wuliao-ing, we began our journey back home and reached home at 4.30am...


In conclusion, when a person or a bunch of ppl get too STRESSED or too PRESSURIZED, their mind started to think & act crazily. Altho tired, but its all just some FUN to release their stress.


Sunday, March 15, 2009

Low immune system

Cham lo... I just realized tat im sick with flu (like water flowing from the water pipe) every weekend. woohoo.... i guess im just too bz with my uni stuff like fyp, assignment n tests. Lack of rest, run here and there to do my things... n when i hv my free time, i used it till the fullest without giving a nice rest to my body. XD so, i think this is wat i get for exhausting my body. XP Dont learn from me... Nononono, u shouldnt.


Hmmm..... u knw wat, everytime when im having water pipe flu, there's an opportunity for me to argue with tat selfish/dirty/irresponsible hsemates who accomodate small room. But i just cant go out wit my super comfortable pyjamas and running nose to argue wit them. I just cant argue till half way n say "excuse me, i nid to get my tissue a while" then right after tat continue to argue right? arrghh.... Nvm la, i dont think i nid to argue anymore cos they will move out soon. wahaha..


With my current flu, i will still nid to study for my toxicology and haematology midterm tests and prepare for my presentation. Hopefully, i'll b alrite on tues without any changes to my voice or else, my fellow toxic-mates will hv a good laugh at my sexy voice. ^^


Wish me Get Well Soon n Good Luck ya!~