He's hinting me

Fully describe me..... Now I knw why God wants me to listen to this song these few days. The way God speak to me. =)

Some little updates

Hello hello~~

It's been a long time since i last updated my blog. hahaha~~ 

Kind of busy with this and that.. got no time and no mood to update. XP So, here are some brief updates!

Basically i'm trying to balance out myself here.. health, skin care, weight, ministries, tuition and my job. It's kind of freaking me out when I see my skin breaking out, dehydrated, and dull. So, it's time to do something without needing to go to Jln Imbi just to consult my skin specialist. Thus, I opt for masks... Trying out the Annie's way mask alternating with other mask e.g. Mario Badescu Silver Powder, Timeless Truth masks. So far.... Annie's way mask makes my skin softer n hydrated. Kind of liking it... will give it more time to really say it's effective. Let's see how my skin become in 2-3 weeks time. =)

I need to admit that i'm getting old.. a mere 15 sit up is taking my whole breath away. My gosh!! where's the "at least 20 counts" that I used to do. Yes, I know i've gained much more weight compared to my old days. That's why i'm trying my very best to slim down now with the help of Hot Top and Hot Pants (hahaha.... giving myself some excuses to not use that much energy to yield a good result =P) 

A few more days to go for our specially arranged Dance Workshop with Joel. Can't wait to learn more of Hip hop since it's not my specialty. So, it's time to absorb all like a dry sponge! (a time to keep myself in shape too... since i'll be sweating like running water starting from the first 10 minutes till the end. Hmm... a total of 4.5 hours will helps me to burn a LOAD rite? =p)

Then, next next week will be our Jubilee Prayer Camp for 3 days 2 nights. The week after, M4J.... then next few weeks will be the Final for Dreams III which we'll have our Love:Miracle musical drama! yeah!!~ a long awaited drama. Can't wait for it~~ Wish I can sit down and watch all....... Clone me clone me!! XD

That's all!! 

p.s. You know what actually triggers me to write this post? I just wanna shout out (once in a blue moon) that I'm getting freaking old these days! LOL!

Typo

Sometimes typo can be a laughter but sometimes it will create a BIG misunderstanding. 

Hello people out there. Typo in an official e-mail will certainly create some serious misunderstanding. Of course it will confused people from time-to-time too. For me, I don't look at the day you typed but the date. Everything goes according to the date. If you typed it wrongly and when I asked to clarify and you know that there must be some misunderstanding, can't you just kindly re-read your email and see if there's any mistake? 

Sigh! Adult! How old are you? With high education yet you still have lotsa typo in your email. I'm seriously doubting how you wrote all of your theses.

Thank God I have a boss who understands me well and supports me all the time. We clarified everything without your help and we don't know when in the future this will happens again with your serious typo problem and talking without some serious thinking. Yes, i'm mad cos you blew up my day early in the morning. I'm not your sandbag, A/Pxxx. 

Listen to Our Hearts

As you all have heard, as you all have seen in the news. People from another country had invaded to my homeland. Although it's far from my city (about 400km - 6 hours 25 mins drive / 1 hour flight), but we are all united as one. I don't know what to say about our Government or those people who claim our homeland as their land. BUT can't they listen to what we want? We are the citizen who live there. We are the one who grew up there. It's not up to their decision, whose land it belongs to. 

All we want is just peace. Since it's been ages we've called ourselves Malaysian and we are proud to have live harmoniously together with different ethnics and races peacefully for decades. So, let us be. We owned the land. Not people who have not live or grow up there, not people who suddenly invade and claim its theirs, or people who said they will do this and that but all turn up to be empty promises. I pray that my friends and all who live nearby the towns/island to be safe. I pray that all Sabahan be united as one and not be shaken by any parties. May the Lord reign in Sabah and reclaim our freedom from all darkness. 

Delete Button

Yes, it had been a rough day yesterday... 

Tired and hurtful... it filled all of my mind. Can't concentrate on my work and can't focus. It just kept on piling up on my head. Yes, I admit it's one of my weaknesses... it's really hard to accept pain or scar in my life. Although I tried so hard to joke, to fill my mind with so many things.. tears just fall automatically. 

BUT all these are the things that teach me and help me improve more. Like what Joel Osteen said, "Hit the delete button". I shall delete all the negative thoughts and renew it with the word of God. Reprogramme it with positive thinking. Thank God for giving me good sisters, good disciple and all the wonderful people around me. They advised me, they cheered me up, they are just wonderful! I believe God had prepared the best path for me, the one that He think best for me. As long as I don't give up on what he has given me to go through, I will success one day.. earning His praises. That's all I need. 

Thank you, sis. I will remember what you said,"You are who you are. Just be yourself."

CNY Mood ON!

Three more days and I'll be back in my hometown!!~ YEAH! No mood to work edi... I've been smiling one whole day thinking the holidays are coming nearer and nearer. Lol... do u feel excited as I am? 

Can't wait to meet up with my family, my relatives and friends. 

Checklist: 

1) Facial - Checked!

Made my facial appointment! Teehee~ Not even home yet.... but sms-ed Vanessa, my beautician, already. XD Happy happy~ It's been so long since I last had a facial treatment. Hmm... it's been 5 mths! My gosh! My face gonna be a good playground for Vanessa. sigh~ Poor face..

2) Nails 

When it's CNY, it's time to pamper myself! ngahahaha~ Am gonna paint my nails crazily again.. should I do something like Christmas?? maybe yes! Cos i'm loving my China Glaze and my Etude nail polish glitter pack in silver & nude. (^.^) Cant wait, cant wait... 

3) Day 28 Night Market

Not sure about this year... if we're going or not. It's been a tradition i think, for us to go out to join the crowd in shopping and buying foods till 1 or 1.30am. Feeling a little lazy.. but if mom wanna go, why not? 

4) Sandra's own homemade Brekkie to go go

Can't wait to try it out since she called me few days ago saying that she succeeded in creating the same taste Brekkie to go go as Boost Juice. Lol~ Homemade, why not?? I'm sure it will be one of my breakfast those few days in KK. Can't wait for other breakfast too! Nian gao (sticky dough), mien fun tap (something like roti canai)! Woohoo~~ 

5) Nieces and Nephews

Hahahahaha... I really can't wait to see them all. They are too cute to resist! Can't wait to see Hannah. Din get the chance to see her yet. and yes! i'm gonna see her during the Family Reunion dinner. =D 

So, CNY come faster!! then go slower!! Lol~ 

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone!! Have a safe journey back home and remember to have a good fellowship and precious time with your family!! Don't miss any of the good time. Miss ya all~

Wow!

Feeling a little funny and of course proud.. =D

Yes, I miss being a Franciscan and I'm always proud to be one. hahahaha~

Didn't know that my junior, also from 3 Dynamic, produced this short documentary film about English language. I'm a proud senior?? XD You can see the tradition in SFC..ahaha.... the 38-ness, the craziness, the many action while talking, etc... lol~ Oh, Franciscan...

Actually, I was quite surprised to see this posted in SFC group page by my friend on 23 Dec (but I just watched it today >.<). I miss my English teacher, Mrs. Tok, she still looks young! Awww~~ It had been such a long time since I graduated from this school. Okay, enough of nonsense and craps... here's the video!

Enjoy English!~

De-Stress

Arrgh!! Really feel like crying now... 

Timetable you are making me mad and frustrated! Because of you, I can't think properly.. because of you, I'm in brain jam mode! 

Gonna need a De-Stress Super Booster later! 

Gonna eat like crazy, gonna munch on my Royce Chocolate, gonna drink Boost, gonna marathon with Running Man, gonna paint my nails crazily...and I'm gonna blast my ears with music. (>.<) (T.T) super complicated feelings. sobsob..... 

I wan Christmas mood.... I wan holidays!! I wan................ No Timetabling.... I know, i'm daydreaming again. 

The moments

Smile & Cheer up!
is what I told them.

The moment when I started our practice... felt anticipating and worried.
The moment when I finished choreographing... felt relieved and anticipating.
The moment when I'm anxiously searching high n low for the costume... worried and relieved.
The moment when I passed the baton to them to choreograph some dance... am really proud.
The moment when we first finished practicing the whole dances... joyful and excited.
The moment when we first did our flash mob in Sg. Buloh... anxious and crazy.
The moment when we continue our flash mob the 2nd day... more confident and joyful.
The moment when we first rehearsed... overly proud of my dancers.
The moment I visited them in workshop... they were so excited and I can't wait for them to show me what they've learned.
The moment when I received the news... disappointed but peaceful.
The moment I wrote to them... reluctant to post it up. Why?

It's all because I realized that they've grown so much! So much that I feel overly joy... so much that I just want to hug each and every one of them to thank and tell them... You did really well! They love each other, they support each other, they treat each other like their own flesh. We've become a very big family. How I wish I can see all of them perform asap but I know longer time means more patience, more practice, more time to brush up their skills, more time to prepare for the BEST that is yet to come. 

So, smile and cheer up! It's not the end but a longer pathway to the Best Production.
Yeay~ =D

Heavy Traffic

Oh my... Red light, Green light, yellow light..... honk honk honk! So many vessels moving here and there..
This is all happening in my head... it's brain jam now!

It had been a hectic week.. tiring days... Thinking, putting in creativity, counting, practicing, budgeting, RM sign, searching here and there, shopping here and there, going from this place to another. Now, it's totally jam I think.

Unknowingly, I deleted my boss's sms when it came in without reading it while I was on the phone. >.< luckily, it can be retrieved back. Luckily... it's not coming in to my 012 number. Luckily, it's not on iphone... or else, I'll be so dead.

Yeah.... Christmas is coming, another production is coming.. that's why we are all bz bz bz...

Things to do:

1) Dance moves:
    - Spooky song (pending)
    - Office mob (90% done)
    - Japanese Sakura (Done)
    - YMCA (80% Done)
    - Indian (Done)
    - Flash Mob Call Me Maybe (95% Done)

2) Costume:
    - Office mob:
       vest (pending)
       hat (9 pending)
       neck tie (Done)
       white blouse (pending)
    - YMCA
       customized shirt (pending)
    - Japan
      Yukata (80% done)
      Red Ribbon (pending)
      Fan (Done)
      Wig & Extension (pending)
    - India
      Lengha (pending)
      Bangles (Done)
      Earrings (Done)
      Hair accessories (pending)
    - Evil man
      Tuxedo (pending)
      Walking stick (Done)
      Hat (Pending)
    - Poor lady
      Patches on shirt (pending)

3) Budget (headache - Pending)
4) Makeup items (Done? 99%)

Despite all these traffics in my head... I'm still excited! hehe

Yeah, It's Christmas season! are you excited for our production?? Let's look forward to Miracle Christmas 2012!! 

p.s: I'm so sleeeeepy.... @.@ Muscle pain.... I need off day... I want holiday.... TGIF!

A Good News?

Hmm... i've been wanting to post up a post about my China trip but it seems like it's going to be delayed again. It's been a super busy period!! >.<

Well, back to my topic. Should I be happy when my boss inform me that he's going to recommend me for a promotion? A promotion to senior executive... but my working experience have not reach 3 years! He told me that he wanted me to be promoted cos i've done really well but everyone is saying that min is 3 years experience. siggghh.... He also mentioned that the only way for me to get paid more is to get promoted. (yeah, so true! I've done so much and of course I wanted more pay... isnt it?)

In dilemma.... dilemma.... which one? Or I should just go with whatever God gave me first??

For My Best Dancers

To my beloved DREAMS II dancers: 

AGain, I'm gonna say THANK YOU very much for all of your hardwork. I know I've been in ups and downs recently. My emotion wasn't that Okay.. so, I got a little angry and might have scolded you at some point. I'm really sorry! Indeed at one point, I nearly give up with the LED lights.. cos it was a little too last minute and it has been giving me a lot of problems here and there. How it burned you, how it does not light up, how awful it smells, how dangerous it is, how long it takes to fix one circuit....but through you who did not give up and because of your faith, we have successfully wrapped up the whole opening dance. Really grateful and thankful to have you all. 

The time you spent to do the LED lights till 2am in the morning, 12 am plus for a few nights in a row, and even till 4am in the morning.. the time you spent to do shopping right after classes to fix the costume, to buy the gloves, bandage, switch, wires, to charge the battery every 2 hours, to fetch and to send your teammates home... I owed you all a lot. Thank you so much for your patience, your love, your never give up spirit.. really Thank God cos you are the one that stays beside me all of the time. Helping me with this and that. Above all else, Thank God that you are safe and sound and none of you got burned by the lights. I know you have been struggling with the heat when you turn off the light on the actual day, how you tried your very best to tahan the heat it released, how you carry the battery at the back, how you tahan when the battery knock your head when you are doing your flips.. I saw what you did, I felt what you felt, to tell you the truth... my heart aches but there's nothing I can do except for thank you again and again. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

Without you all, DREAMS II will not have a good Opening Dance. 

You are my BEST DANCERS! Thank you!

**will try to get the complete group picture.. Seb, don't be disappointed**

A special day

It must have been a special day today..

Gave some advises to two different people this morning. Hmm.. They were like a sudden conversation. Have I serve my purpose of the day? or more to come for today?

I feel grateful to God that I'm still of good use. Told God plenty of times or should I say all the time, to use me.. Lord, I'm here.. I belongs to you.. use me as you wish. Thank you, Lord.

Thank God...

I Love you my lord, only you that I need. When I see your face, my life has been changed. Thank you, Lord Jesus.

White Flag

I'm so not in the mood to do any work today. sigh~

I feel so tired and sleepy. I have so many work that I dont know where to start off. I cant think of anything... AND I'm feeling OLD lately. >.< my skin tends to be very dry these few weeks.. so it's a little (or should i say very) flaky and I can feel my palms' cells are pulling, straining, and stressing each other. Skin breaking out but I cant do much cos i hv a very sensitive skin and i dont hv time to go to Bukit Bintang just to see my specialist... forgetting this and that. And I have super short memory term now.. T.T  I seriously dont know what happened to me.

I feel like surrendering to whatever I need to do... *waving my white flag hard from left to right*

really asking for SOS option... if there's any.

Things scattering inside my brain:
a) Office: - mountain high pending tasks.
b) LED lights not fixed yet.... trial n error last sat = FAILED. bought new and smaller wires which can only be found in Pudu today. (I owed Ah Fei a lot). He'll need to finish off everything by tonight. Pity him but he's the only one that has the equipment to do that.
c) Costume (hopefully sebrina manage to buy it before sat).
d) Song to be passed to our multimedia.
e) bridesmaid dress waiting for lovely gown's call to pick up.
f) fix my tambourine's tassel
g) must prepare a list of things to buy/prepare:

• handbag to store my makeup stuff, ann's make up stuff, ann's personal thing (i think i nid to), water bottles. so, should i buy a medium size or a big one? but i dont know whether it matches my dress o not. In dilemma.. haha~ sendiri cari pasal punya... **ignore me please**
• A checklist for bride's belonging
• A checklist for DREAMS II dance team. 
• 9 July dinner arrangement

h) Apply for credit card (which im so reluctant to do... but sandra scolded me... n force me to apply one before vacation.. fyi, she even helped me to apply online bcos i owes tell her that im bz with something.. i'm not free now. she even logged in to my staff profile, changed my information, and getting some information). =S
i) Others I cant recall..... i must hv forgotten a long list of tasks again.. >.<

Anyone wanna be my PA?? hehe~

3 hours of FUN

It was FUN yesterday... learning, teaching and practicing with 24 people at the same time for 3 hours. 

I know the time is a little short to learn so many steps and to get familiarize with your partner. But this is also the time when you'll build up relationships and see their funny/awkward moments. Haha~ But there's one thing I did not get it from them.... "stepping on each other's feet". From what I learnt from the professionals, beginner tends to step on each other's feet on their first lesson. So, imagine how clever they are....! 

For people who never dance before, indeed this is a big breakthrough for them. But I found it to be quite fascinating to see their spirits and the way they create their own style. The boys are the most incredible ones, they learned their basic steps from Eric, thus copying Eric's dance style... which is EXACTLY the same. I can't stop laughing at their way of dancing the moment I watched it. LOL! 

They are a few of them who made my day livelier... To name a few, David: the galloping master...Samuel: The master of "stealing chicken", and some admitted their own mistakes and wanted to repeat and repeat again. 

Although it's tiring... although I need to use all of my voice resulting a little sorethroat, but it's all worth it! Seeing how far is your accomplishment in just 1 day, I can't wait to meet up with you all again on coming Saturday for the 2nd lesson. Time to quickly wrap up everything and be prepared for the 7 July 2012! Shake the Stage with your swing dance! Impress them!~ Yeah!

Something's Not Right

When people asked, I answered: "I'm fine". But when I'm alone, I felt there's something not right...somehow, I just know that i'm not really fine/okay.

sigh..  Please pray for me....

I don't know if it happens because of the fall... but it does happen after the fall... the only difference is, it happens a few days after the fall.

1) Bruises: These are common
2) Urinate less, few days after the fall for like 2 days.
3) Some sort of discharge/bleeding... which is not normal for this period of time.
4) Painful right shoulder/arm since monday nite: I can't lift up my hand. Daytime it's still okay... mayb it's because the night before I put on some Yoko yoko (Yeah, i know... i feel like an old lady too) and some sort of medicated plaster. Night time is the torturing time. >.<

Was so worried that I contacted one of my close friend who is now a doctor in Australia. After reading her advice, felt a lil relieved but not fully stress free yet. Still need to make an appointment with doctor if bleeding still persist. sigh.... (dont feel disappointed if I din contact/msg you if you are a doctor.. I've been struggling whom shall I seek advice from. It's not that you are not worthy... or you are not the expert... but it's a little embarrassing when I need to clearly describe the whole thing. Please understand and be happy k?).

So, friends.... I need your prayer. If you wish me well and would like to see me jumping up and down, and can at least give you a high 5, please please please pray for me. 

Arigato Gozaimasu! Kamsahamnida! Xiexie! THANK YOU!

After effect

I have additional bruises on my hands and legs. These bruises can only be seen after 2-3 days. *Clap Clap Clap*

Here is my o-che family (they are not shy anymore, thus, showing their true colours now... some are still hiding ^^). Pls welcome them... with a big round of applause~~

Below is the chronological order of my biggest and most obvious o-che! Since the first night till the third nite, which is tonite. Will continue to capture the development of the o-che. Hahaha...

Slip

I think today is one of my most unforgettable memory... 

Just a slip and it started my 30-45 mins of nightmare. I accidentally mistook the wrong step on the top of a staircase at level 1 in the office. Fall straight to the bottom like a superwoman (-.-"). Luckily, I can still hold my body up by using my arms to push against the staircase (and of cos thanks to my good back & arms muscles... hehe). That's why, my face, head, neck and shoulder is fine and without any injury. 

The moment i fall, it really feels like i'm acting in a movie.. where you see those actresses fall from a staircase but the only difference is I dint ROLL down the stairs. XD The funny part is.... right after I fall, the thing im looking for is my mobile phone. LOL~ Iphone is still in my hand... HTC, fly off.. to somewhere near by. 

Lucky that I didn't sprain my ankle this time.. but I hurt my left little finger aka pinky, both of my tibia, scratches on my left arm and elbow. I can still stand up after I fall, but after few steps (not even 1 minute), I started to feel a lil blackout, cold sweat, and weaker. I've no strength to support my own body weight, vision getting more n more dim, and I can't really hear what my colleague is talking about. All i know is that, my palms is covered with a little blood and she's very very very very worried... she kept on asking,"Are you okay? Can you walk? Do you want me to call your sister to drive over? Do you want to rest a while?" 

Every step I took, it's like shutting down something inside my body. Every step I took, I felt the body weighing down. Every step I took, I felt my head, fingers and body became numb and colder. Every step I took, the harder for me to see(vision getting darker). Every step I took, the voice of my colleague became lower. By the time I almost reach my sis's car, I can see my sister's shape standing nearby the car... and she asked "What happen". They were discussing whether to send me to Emergency Ward or clinic. 

On the way to clinic, although it's bright and sunny outside, my world is dark..... just like you are in an x-ray/ultrasound. The brighter it is, the darker my world is... I only manage to see the shape n a lil white colour when we're inside the basement parking. Dizziness still accompanying me... still feeling "blackout"... I don't even know that I'm actually in the lift already when my mind is still thinking: "we're waiting for elevator ". I can't see any steps, I can't walk really well....the buzzing sound still ringing very loudly in my ear..  really thank God that my colleague is helping me. She was trying very hard to support me. Thank you so much! 

Doctor suspected a mild fracture on my left tibia (but after x-ray, my tibia is fine!), other body parts are okay except for a small cut on my left pinky and  he said i have mild anemia (this i knew, since young but.... it shud b okay after a few years cos I don't feel dizzy lately). He said I looked sooooooo terribly pale, fingers and toes numb, sweating.... and because I did not have any breakfast, that's y i blackout. >.< 

This is my first long blackout... It's like around 45 mins. The moment I stand up, there's lack of blood to my brain and i started to faint again. The first and the worst....long blackout.. sigh... 

OKay, everyone.... no need worry. I'm all fine now. I'll look after myself today n tomorrow. I'll sure checkout if there's anything wrong with my body. If i felt nausea, i will go to the clinic again. I know my 2nd sister is worried. She scolded me when she's worrying so much and I can still laugh the moment I answered her call. Okay, I'm sorry.... I just don't know that the news spread so fast. I know a lot of ppl knew about it edi.... Just don't worry.. if you are, pray for me. 

New Record of Dynamites

Oh My! This year, it really breaks the record. 

I have 7 official dynamites bombing me in 2012! Pocket oso hangus oh... @.@ 

Why is everyone getting married in 2012? haha~ arhh.... dont ask me, "why isnt ur turn yet?". Well, i'm not ready to get hitch yet! I still hv plenty of things to do which is on the top of my priority list. nah... marriage? long long long long time lagi. Only when God say, "you are ready" then i'm ready! =D

November will be a super bz month for me. I can foresee the things we need to get ready for Christmas production, all the preparations and practices. Yet, I have 2 weddings to attend in just 1 week apart at 2 different places, Malacca and Ipoh. One on the north, the other towards the south peninsular. @.@ Really "pei fu" myself. haha~ Gonna get crazy soon.. looking for dresses will be a big headache edi. Or else, I might as well recycle my dress la. ^^ 

To those invitation that I have or will decline, really SORRY! I can't attend all cos ya know... I'm super BZ person. Can't drive or fly all the way to your wedding. Time is too short... how you wish you have 8 days in a week rite? but I can tell you that... even if you have 8 days a week, you'll still use it up like what you have done now. =D you wont? well.... I will. cos time is so PRECIOUS.... 

Time time time..... can you freeze? I cant, time mayb, but God definitely can freeze it for you! 

Money money money.... can you drop from the sky? I can't make it.. money cant fly itself to you, but God definitely can bless you through someone/something. 

All you need to do is Pray and believe!
So, you know, I know, God knows....
I'll Pray for Double/Triple blessings from God!
Since i'm blessing others, God please bless me more..... I need more of you to be able to bless others!
hiak hiak hiak~~ 7? masih ok la.... anymore? =X

Little Joy

Sweet memory: A night with little Joy.

She's a clever and talkative girl.

Waving at me by the road side when we passed by. Walking in and out of her house, sweating, tired but no where to sleep cos it was too hot with no electricity yesterday night.

With kindness I invited them to wait in my house (mine not affected) but aunt rejected saying it's too late.. Little joy was holding unto my hand and talking but it was so obvious that she's tired. Successfully persuaded aunt to at least allow lil joy to stay over at my Hse while waiting for the electricity to be back.

She followed me happily, talking nonstop... Just like her name. She's so joyful. She wanted to ask a lot of things, wanted to know a lot of things, wanted to talk to me... But after my advice, she fall asleep in less than 3 mins. Surprisingly adorable.. Haha.

Today news: lil joy said it feels very nice to slp on my bed. So comfortable..

Hahaha. She's so cute! Never think that she's young or still a child
, she knows a lot of things cos she's very clever. Never underestimate a child. =)