Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Dance! Dance for Him!

Although I've shared this video before in FB but I still like to share or embed it in here.... I love their dance, the choreography. Their dance really touched one's heart... the energy, the fire, the flow, the gentleness.... everything! I love it... Hopefully, you'll like it too. If you've missed it last time, do enjoy it in here.

Here's a brief description about them. They are christian dance ministry (OMD Mission Dance - Only Jesus Mission Dance) in Korea. They do a lot of performance both on stage and off stage (on the street, etc). You can search for them online or subcribe to their channel in youtube. Their website is www.onlyjesus.co.kr . Do enjoy it as much as I've enjoyed it.

Here's another video that I like too... I love the gentleness, the strength and the emotion that you can feel, the whole story that they portrayed out through their dance.

Monday, December 27, 2010

Christmas 2010

4320 was a success!! 

Indeed it touched a lot of hearts... receiving lots of good comments from all friends. 4320 soundtrack and mugs were sold on 19, 24 n 25 Dec... selling hot like pancakes.

Of cos, I'll never forget my lovely dancers. You all have made me proud... in just a short time (a month to 1.5 mth, i guess..forgot edi), you've successfully learn lots of patterns... half of book 1 if not mistaken and some ballet style. I know I've been a little strict with you all, pls dont keep it in your heart... if I've offended you, I'm sorry. For the guys, you all did great too~ I'm really proud of you all, 14 of you... These 3 days (ROC, Seremban, PCKL), without you all... the performance will not be that awesome. You've put in a lot of effort, sacrificing your time and rest just for practice 2-4 times per week..Without you all on 24th, 30 sets of cd and mugs will not be sold out in 1 hr time. I really appreciate it and I gave thanks to God cos I have you all in the team. Together we shine and Glorify His name... I LOVE YOU ALL!~

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Last Minute


Some people like to do things in the last minute. Why on earth do you have to do it only at the very last minute? Can't you do it earlier on since you have plenty of time? Please be responsible!

I've sent out an email earlier on since last week regarding their duties and yet only just now he told me that he can't do it and saying angrily that no matter what, I've to find a solution for him. @#&*^@ Who do you think I am? There's no other people who is free to do it.. if not you, who else can do it? You say you need to do research... is all your job on research only? What's job title?? Aren't this your job? Saying you did not receive my email and blame me that I did not inform you on mon morning.... do you think I will do double work? I have things to do oso.... you are not the only one who hv things to do. It's not that I dont want to do double job but think carefully... What for I send email out n cc to my superior? what for? Aren't you suppose to check your email everyday in the morning once you have reach office? It's your own fault that you did not check earlier on. Why tell me last minute that you don't want to do it? Do you think I can do magic? If you can't do it, you should have at least reply me earlier on that you can't do it and not wait until today which is already wednesday, ok?

You say it's unfair cos u hv 3 slots, others hv 2 slots only... think carefully and recheck the prev schedule i've sent to everyone. You and some of them hv 2 slots, others 3 slots... did they complaint? NO! it's a rotation. You all wanted to be fair... I am FAIR! Last time you din get 3 slots means this time you hv do it. It's so simple and yet you complaint a lot!

Somemore your good friend also say, if there's swapping or changes, you should do it earlier on and not in the last minute. He also stated that he doesn't like last minute job. Even your good friend doesn't want to replace you in that duty of yours! What do you want me to do then? You are the only that will have 2 slots everytime? Is this fair to others?! think! Ohh...!! I am really pissed off now.

If you talk to me nicely, I wont b mad... the way you talk, it really pisses off!

Monday, December 13, 2010

Unmeasureable Excitement but Undescribeable Feelings...

19 Dec is around the corner... I'm excited! are you??

This morning I reconfirm my frens' attendance to the event..and guess wat.. 1 more coming! yeah~  4320, it's time for BIG wave! Time for God's work.. can't wait cant wait... Bz preparing, practicing.... although limited space, but Holy Spirit will definitely help us... We will do our Best to Glorify God's name.

Felt a lil stressed actually... pressured to be exact. The new friend I'm inviting (who actually approached me on her own..asking abt the event) is the Ballet teacher/dance studio director...DIRECTOR..O.O!!  I'm happy that she wanted to come and see but at the same time, if my choreography is not that good?? T.T how?? especially the ballet part.... Oh... who can help me? Anyway, I pray that God will do rest of the things... I'll just submit myself to him. (mou ngan tai ar.... scary scary)

Yesterday was the 1st rehearsal, Ps Meng said it was the best ever (for both drama n dance).... A lot of ppl said it's nice... just the chorus part mayb nid to be more sync. siigghhh..... happy that it was good but pressure cos it's not perfect. ='(  After listening to all sorts of plans from Sis Mei Lin, I felt more stress. sobsob.... It's not that I dont want to do it... I knw this is it... it's just that I'm afraid cos I'm not professional enough. I dont have the proper basic, I dont have proper classes before....Or should I just sign up for some classes now to improve myself? sighh...how?

I'm happy with my dancers esp when they manage to learn all the steps & patterns in a very short time but I'm sad when they do not listen to me or do not take things seriously... which causes me nid to repeat again n again for dunno how many times.. sigghh... They are awesome, this I cannot deny...but teenagers.. as you know tends to fool around a lot. sighh~  Oh, God please help me... give me your strength...

Well, trust God is all I need. I do the small parts, He do the BIG part... 4320 Christmas is the day that the Lord hath made!

** This is the day, that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,
     This is the day that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,

     Rejoice.... In the Lord,
     Rejoice.... In the Lord.

     This is the day, that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it,
     This is the day that the Lord has made,
     I will Rejoice and be glad in it.

     This is the Day that the Lord Has MADE!

Friday, December 3, 2010


Yeah~ Youtube is back in office....
 031210 is defintely a special day for me...

Everything is so smooth. I've been chatting for whole morning, lunch with colleague, then cell group with a few more new comers (They are attracted to his story.. hm.. He did a great job actually - building up r/ship with them), then here I am again in office..blogging. Oopss.. haha~~

Starting from last nite, I've got lotsa lotsa birthday blessings.. TQ everyone.. love u all. Wishes all the way from all over the places including Japan, Australia, KK, etc etc... TQ very muchie. I'm grateful and happy cos yeah, it's my birthday but at the same time, I grew older... O.O!! (nvm, as long as I'm young at heart, I will always be young~ XD)

Friends kept on asking me... what you want, how are you going to celebrate... the answer is I dunno. I want a lot of things... but in my mind, it seems like christmas event is more important cos I cant really see my birthday. it's like... it Outshine my birthday.. haha~~

I pray that friends that I've invited will get to know Him more during this special event. I pray that I can get lotsa good news..which makes my heart leaps a thousand times or more... I want everything to be well!! yes! Well! Let All things go according to His Will~)

Jesus I love you and please bless all the ppl whom I loved too. Ppl who bless me, bless them double or triple or more, Lord. Let it be overflowed...!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Everything is Near~


Bufday is near... Rehearsal is near... 19 is near... 25 is NEAR too... hehe~
Altho it's just the beginning of the month but it feels like the 25 days in gap are so small that you cant take a long breath to relax. We have to be prepared..we have to be well prepared for the upcoming war... we have to fully utilise all of our energy. We have to.... I dunno, you name it!

hahaha~~ I love December since young... bcos it's my long long semester break...Although now I'm in the working society edi, I still LOVE December.. cos I still can feel the holiday mood. The Christmas mood to be exact. I love all the Christmas celebrations and of cos my birthday too!~ XD (ermm... im not giving you some hints to actually rmb my bufday. It's just that I'm too happy and excited for the christmas event!)

I'm so excited that I've spent RM200 for my dancer's make up last nite. O.O!! I also dunno why I spent so much for just 3 little small things. ='( my purse vomit blood edi.... but the look that I wanted to achieve, is not... that complete yet.. sobsob.. ='''( how? who can help me?? anyone willing to sponsor us? XD I'll be really grateful and will welcome you big big with my hugs?? arms? which one do you prefer? haha~ I will say, hugs for ladies... guys? hmm..high5? XD

oh ya! I seriously need help. I need...make-up artist and hair stylist? haha~~ pro-nya.. I want ppl who knw how to makeup (dramatic look) and ppl who knws how to really braid hair..anyone anyone?? Cos I dont think I can do it all alone. I'll be really tired that 2 days... I need help...help.... and it's a volunteer basis ok? =))

Cheers!!~ I love CHRISTmas... I love to see Big REVIVAL WAVE... I love serving Him.. Muackss~


Cham lo.... I just realised the Uni has blocked our access to youtube. Argghh.... How am I going to survive? I'll be super boring when I really have nothing to do at that moment.

*Cry oso no tears coming out ar... ='( *

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

JS - Jayesslee in China

I'm so touched with what they've done with the poor guy. I'm not sure whether u can catch up with what they mentioned in the video but it's ok...

They saw a poor guy taking all the remaining (leftover) dumplings from a restaurant and they decided to buy him a McD meal set. It was freezing cold in Beijing and as usual you know a person needs food to provide energy and heat for the body. So this is what they have done.

Remember what Jesus said in the parable of the Good Samarintan? Luke 10:25-37
Do likewise!

The reason

Now I know why God want me to approach him...

He needs a direction.. a direction to God. God chose me to guide him. This is it!
But after this, it might be someone else job to follow up. ^^

Rejoice!~ The time is near! Rejoice!
Revival wave... sniff sniff.. I can smell it!!

Monday, November 22, 2010

Christmas & Camp

Impact Camp is around the corner.... wrapping up all the details. Can't wait for it! Grab your chances to encounter Him more in this camp. Be filled with the Holy Spirit!

4320 is the biggest event of the year.. Waiting for another revival wave to come through. Happy that I've successfully invited 6 of my friends... anymore? or maybe I should try to approach some of the students now. Students who likes to rush into my office for no reason, flipping through the newspaper and then off for class again. What a unique students he is.... his image kept on appearing in my mind... is this a sign to approach him. I'll try....

Dancers are all gearing up for the event...practising and practising few times in a week. Yes, we're all tired but we never give up. For this is the work of God... We want to win more souls.. we want to glorify His name. This is only a small part of His big plan. So a little tiredness does not mean a lot...a little tiredness should not hinder us from doing something Big (in our eyes) for His plan. For His time is near.... we should get ready.. His time is near, so we should spread His Good News even more... He who has ears, let him hear. Can't wait can't wait!

If you wish to attend, get tickets from me! If you couldnt go on the 19 Dec 2010 at ROC, Kota Damansara.. It's ok, get the 25 Dec 2010 ticket from me then..... Never give up, never say NO.. No excuse or you'll regret. ^^

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Spare me

One word to describe my condition now... STRESS!

Please dont bug me with nonsense. Please stop annoying me...
I'm not stress because of too many things given to me and I cant handle it at all. No!
It's because I dont have enough rest and I felt sick. My back is aching nonstop recently. I feel like stretching my bones.. taking it out and make it loose or at least bend my backbone the other way round. sigghh...

**I seriously need a deep pressure massage**

My brain is not functioning properly too. arrgghh.... I kept on forgetting things. My mind seriously need to be refreshed. I need a good sleep... so, little boys and gals, can you please spare me..? dont bug me with your questions okay? let me rest a while. Let me gather all my gears and be prepared again before I go into the battlefield ok? Just release me at this moment...I'll be back. No worries.

Let me have a good vacation and a good rest with my family. So, dont call... sms oso please not that much ok? it's expensive for both parties. Spare me and urself.. deal? I hope your answer is yes.

Monday, November 8, 2010


A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further.
  So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.
The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us.
We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!

I asked for Strength.........
And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favors.........
And God gave me Opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted ........
I received everything I needed!

Trust in God. Always !

Touching life story.....

A young man was getting ready to graduate college. For
     many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer's
     showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told
him that was all he wanted.

     As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited
     signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the
morning  of his graduation his father called him into his private
  study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine
son, and  told him how much he loved him. He handed his son
a beautiful   wrapped gift box.

     Curious, but somewhat disappointed the young man
     opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible. Angrily,
he raised his voice at his father and said, "With all your money you
give  me  a Bible?" and stormed out of the house, leaving the holy

     Many years passed and the young man was very successful in
     He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his
     father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He
had   not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make
     arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had
     passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He
needed   to come home immediately and take care things.
When he arrived at  his father's house, sudden sadness and
regret filled his heart.

     He began to search his father's important papers and
     saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With
tears,  he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. As he
read those   words, a car key dropped from an envelope
taped behind the Bible.
It  had a tag with the dealer's name, the same dealer who had the
sports  car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation,
     and the words...PAID IN FULL.

     How many times do we miss God's blessings because they are not
     packaged as we expected?

Thursday, November 4, 2010


On the night of 2 Nov, I received a sms from my sister: Dad fell down today. I was shocked and called back home immediately. In my heart I was praying hard... pls dont give me a very bad news. My mind was racing... thinking whether I should fly back home if something serious had happened.

On the other end,

Sis: I know you will call me immediately.
(she started laughing)
Me: Har? Don't play eh.... Did dad really fell down?
Sis: Ya la... what for I lie?
Me: Then, how is he now? How did he fell down? Which part injured? When did he fell down?
Sis: I dunno.. u ask him la.
(Passing the phone to daddy)

Dad: Mm.. (indicating he is answering the phone now)
Me: Are you injured? What happen?
Dad: Ha? Aiya.. nothing big la.. just some little scratch.
Me: Sure? you fell down wor.... How did you fell?
Dad: I din see the steps.. So, I tripped lo.. No worries la ok? just some scratch.
Me: Har... sure or not? I don't believe. Ask sis to answer the phone pls..
(Dunno why.. mayb dad misheard.. He passed the phone to mom instead)

Mom: Just some scratch la... he say he is okay. No need to worry him wor..
Me: har? Are you sure? Where did he fell?
Mom: Tu.... near the townboard (townboat? i dunno the spelling..It's the dewan bandaraya). But his spectacle is crooked already la..
Me: Har?? How did he actually fell? He tripped to the front is it?
Mom: Yeah, I think so. I dunno. I didn't see him falling. He got scratches on his forehead and cheek.
Me: What? Did he injured his eye? (Dad has history of surgeries in the eye.. so I'm kind of very worried)
Mom: No but your sister asked him to redo the spectacle tomorrow.
Me: No matter what.. bring dad to see doctor tomorrow (Cos it's night time edi...and it's late..)
Mom: Aiya.. your dad don't want de la.. just now your sis tried to persuade him edi.
Me: No! you must... haiya nvm.. ask sis to answer the phone.. (I'm in the middle of teaching my tuition class actually)

Sis: What?
Me: Bring dad to see doc.
Sis: He don't want..
Me: No matter what... no matter what excuse he has.. it's a must. Your dad is not young anymore. Please take it seriously.
Sis: Oohhh... (shouting to the back.. your daughter ask you to see doctor arrr...) He ran in to the room edi. hahaha.. He don't even want to listen.
Me: Please.... please take him to the doctor and make sure there's a receipt after the consultation. I want to see it as a proof.
Sis: Uiyo.. ok lo..
(call ended after telling her I have to rush back to my class..)

Daddy, did you see the doctor? I'm worried... you may say it's just some scratches. But remember you are not young anymore and we're all worried. Worried that there's some hidden injuries... worried cos we're going off for our vacation next week. We want you to be in the tip top condition and you go for your vacation.

Abba father, please take care of my daddy... please give him a good health and heal him from sickness and injuries. Release him from his stress.. Allow him to encounter u, Lord... allow him to know you more, Lord. Open up his heart that one day he'll accept you as his Saviour. This is my prayer...Amen.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Ups & Downs

In life, there's always ups & downs....

Too many things had happened lately (if u observed well, u knw wat had happened). Sweet, sour, bitter, hot (in mandarin) all are included.

Hometown, the place that I miss so much now stored lots of my joyful moment. I know deep in my heart that my cousins and my friends all love me so so so much... I love u all. You all are great.. you've touched my heart. I miss all the kiddos too... too cute, too hard to resist them.. XD

Mom gave me early birthday gifts... I really miss her so much now. A mom that never fails to love me more n more. FYI, she attended church service with me back in hometown & it's her own willingness without me persuading her =) . Even my little sister also attended the service (yet to counsel her... sigh... I just dunno how to start the "conversation" with her... O Lord, can you gv me some guidelines? lead my path, Lord). 

Before I came back, dad was trying to drive me to airport. It's rainy day and mom was driving another car. I kept on asking him, "Dad, can you see the road? Do you want me to drive?". Dad said, "I can. I still can see." I was so worried... if I'm not with him, how is he going drive home? After few minutes, I saw him struggling to look into the dark alley and drive very very slowly (my heart aches...sympathize..worrying). At last, he gave up and stop at the road side and allow me to drive. I kept on reminding him not to drive when it's night time and especially when it's raining. I told him to wait till they fetch my little sister and ask her to drive instead. Dad, I know you love me, I love you too.. please take good care of urself. Listen to my advice, will you? Drink more green tea instead of beer.. eat more nutritious food. Not too much of red meat..rest more, slp more...

I'm longing for our family vacation... I really wanted to see you all badly. I miss our family reunion... 1 more week to go.

Christmas event, the moment that I long for almost near... with all my busy schedule, I barely have enough rest recently. But I'm happy to see the passion in my dancers... the passion to dance well. Their learning ability did impress me... cos it's an intensive class, so learning and memorizing so many things in such a short period of time is impossible. I'm proud of them all... Let's not give up, learn and worship him freely in his presence... this is the thing that I wanted them to achieve. (FYI, I have two confirmed friends who will be joining us for the christmas celebration.. yeah~ one of them suddenly called me on sun and said she wanna join and most probably will be able to join before she fly off to shanghai. I din even tell them that we have a good drama, etc etc... I just mentioned a christmas celebration ^^ - can u see God's work? can u feel it?)

**Still in the mid of choreographing the dancesteps**

I just received one bad news from a colleague from another department. sigghh.... Most probably, my faculty's salary will be deducted to cover the loss of an equipment. Heartache - because 110 will be deducted (and it happens when i'm really in a financial tight situation); Relieved - because it's just 110 and not more than that..(hopefully.. depends on how the management decide). 

* I'm proud of Jayesslee and I've shared their testimony in FB. It's touching...The main point: Rejoice when you are struggling, Rejoice when all things crush down. So, Rejoice!*

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Wedding Cakes

Ever dream of ur own wedding cakes? Do you want it to be special? I have few pics of incredible wedding cakes design which I took in an exhibition in Giza. Here it is! enjoy~

I like this the most... So beautiful~


This one is so meaningful~

You won't believe who made this....See below for more info.

Monday, October 18, 2010

The Right Attitude

One should have the right attitude in everything he do. How you want your impression to be is how you are going to create it.

I'm really kek hei ar... sometimes, some people just don't know how to behave well or should I say have the right attitude. No matter it's in your workplace or personal life or maybe even in your own school, attitude is so important.

How can one possibly allow a patient to wait for more than half an hour just for delivery? It's a simple task and yet you take your own sweet time (don't know doing what). How will the patient feel? felt mistreated? And to my surprise, you can glamorously walk in the office and ask, "Eh, where's the patient?" O.O arrgghh... what should I say? eg: "They went to cafeteria while waiting for you"? "Buy you a coffee"? (@#&*(@^$  In the end, I just told him, "Someone else do the delivery" and FYI, I need to beg other people to do it. Luckily, he's kind enough and did not count much on how many works he needs to do.

In my own opinion, one should really adjust their attitude when it comes to something that you have already commited. This is your responsibility! So, don't toss it around like a ball or give excuses. Same applied to your personal life.. or if you are student, then in your school...

My fav sentences: "Treat others how you want others to treat you" & "Love your neighbour as yourselves".

*CYS calm down... Breathe in, breathe out... pheww...*

Friday, October 15, 2010


Abalone is a species of shellfish (mollusks). The shell of abalone is known for being exceptionally strong. It is made of microscopic calcium carbonate tiles stacked like bricks. It is used to protect its own soft inner body from any harm. You may crumble the outer shell by running over it with a truck but not the inner shell, also known as nacre.

Nacre appears iridescent because the thickness of the aragonite platelets is close to the wavelength of visible light. This results in constructive and destructive interference of different wavelengths of light, resulting in different colors of light being reflected at different viewing angles. (Sounds beautiful, rite? It is...)

You may not see the beauty of a person unless you know him or her for quite some time. So, this is the time where people usually break the ice and destroy the outer shell of a person by socialising with him or her. After some time, you may find the beauty of his or her character...  you may starts to fall in love with him or her. Just like how human admire the beauty of nacre. People even used it as decorations in their home or as accesories. Some people may have a fragile shell but I have a stronger shell just like abalone (I'm not praising myself here as beautiful or strong. Don't get me wrong. )

I may look tough, I may look strong but the inner me is always soft and fragile. This is why I need a strong appearance to protect myself. My nacre.. is it beautiful enough? How will you treat the nacre? Like how human admire the beauty of abalone's nacre? When you like it, you'll take out and polish it, look at it, admire a little more..then put it back to the shelf or your drawers? However, I found some cracks on my "nacre". Cracks that can never be mended.. No matter how hard you try, it will still remain. Over sometime, the cracks might expose the inner me...showing the weakness side of me. How long more can it endure before it really collapse?

The last event re-occured again... It's like a memory cycle.. Where it creates a deeper and more visible scar. I cannot erased it from my memory... The more I see, the more I feel it slicing the inner me. How long more do I have to endure? Will I be immuned? Can I harden my shell? Can I close up the cracks and be crueled? I wanted to.... or should I say...I'm already trying to...

What should I do now? Let go and forget? I can't... it's just like a movie. Where u'll recall the best part, the worst part, and the part that you hate most....Can I stop? Green or red light? I do feel like giving up.... it's tiring.

Thursday, October 14, 2010


confiance que les autres ont de vous?

J'ai essayé de dormir une heure .. mais il se trouve, j'ai pleuré pendant une heure. Je ne sais pas pourquoi certaines personnes aiment à dire des mensonges. Personnellement, je déteste mentir le plus ... je ne pourrai jamais accepter celui qui est près de moi en me disant des mensonges. J'ai pardonné beaucoup de fois et je lui ai dit que je n'aime pas vraiment celui qui est près de moi le faire. Mais pourquoi dans le monde, il le fait encore? Pourquoi êtes-vous répéter la même erreur? Oui, personne n'est parfait. Toutefois, si vous pouvez choisir de ne pas mentir, pourquoi ne pas me dire la vérité et de cesser certaines habitudes que je n'aime pas?

La chose qui me blesse le plus, c'est pas le mensonge au sujet de qui vous sortir avec mais les images. Savez-vous qu'il me rappelle effectivement quelque chose? Vous souvenez-vous que je peux vraiment quelque chose de place que d'autres ne sont pas facilement repéré? Oui, j'avoue que je suis une personne très sensible.

Je ne peux vivre sans toi. Je ne doute jamais de mon propre capacité. Mais nous avons été ensemble depuis si longtemps. Cinq ans et demi ne sont pas à court .. Savez-vous que? J'ai été tolérant avec vous beaucoup ces derniers temps. Je vous ai donné beaucoup de liberté récents mais pourquoi avez-vous en abuser? Cela me fait mal, ne te rends compte?

Une personne comme vous ne saurez jamais ce que je ressens parce que vous ne vous préoccupez de votre propre sentiment. Vous n'avez jamais l'étape dans la chaussure d'autres personnes afin de savoir exactement ce que d'autres sentir. Je sais que vous ne lirez jamais ma cause blog, vous ne savez même pas que j'en ai un. Même vous, vous le savez, vous n'aurez jamais de soins à ce sujet. Ai-je raison?

Tous ces mensonges, il m'a fait mal .... Tous ces éléments, il laisse des cicatrices dans mon cœur.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What's lie, What's truth?

In Oxford Dictionary,

Lie - an intentionally false statement. 
Truth - the quality or state of being true / a fact or belief that is accepted as true 

But when you demand for the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, it means you demand for absolute veracity of a statement (Oxford Dict). 

If you are a person who dislike lies and someone told u the truth but not the whole truth, do you consider it as a lie? How will you feel about it when you know the whole truth?? In dilemma? or you have the answer in your mind? 

In my own opinion, if you tell me the truth but not the whole truth, it is still a lie. This is my dictionary... how about you? What's in your dictionary? 

Time time time

@.@ same as Ann, I need more time....

I need more time to finish the spelling bee list of words. I need more time to think of the dancers' dancewear, decoration, and choreograph for a song. I need more time to study for my MTS test. I need more time to mark my students' papers.

Yet, I still have time to indulge in Lecka ice-cream.. haha~~ yummm..... luckily they have a food fair in conjunction with the cultural nite.

Oopsss... air-con switch tripped.. Luckily not the electricity for the whole university. Phewww... but how long will it be before the air-con is switch on again? uh-oh... *pls not too long...pls pls pls*

Thursday, October 7, 2010

His Generosity

*Listening to "With All I Am " Hillsong *

Actually there's something I wanted to say for a very long time but I just dunno how to start with it or pour out all of my inner voice. It's just too much!!

About my job - A lot of ppl tend to ask me, "Why you gave up on the scholarship you got for the nursing diploma in IJN (National Heart Institute)?", "Why you don't work in your own field like medical lab technologist?", "Why work in Astro?", "Why don't you work in the job offered in MediCare?", "Why you don't go for sales in your field?", "Why work as admin?"... there's so many "Why". Actually I myself don't really know why.. haha.

Okay, first why I gave up on the scholarship is because during the interview, I felt like im being mocked by the interviewers and the length for the diploma (I mean diploma.. is diploma only) is 3 years and somemore it's not under IJN itself. Students under IJN scholarship will be sent to different colleges for the nursing diploma. After finishing the diploma, we're going to be placed for posting and after that a secured job in IJN but with the salary of RM1800 ( I think so.. I dont really remember). What I remember in my interview is that, I've told them I wanted to get at least a RM2200 salary for my starting salary but they told me it will only be possible if I go for degree or after i've become a senior and hold a high position.. deng! In addition, after diploma, I'm bounded by a bond of 5 years with IJN @.@ okay... IJN is not bad actually but when I sum up the whole length of time.. it's 8 years for a diploma only!! who wants? I accepted the offer but I didn't turn up to get my air ticket the next day.. haha~ my bad.. i know. (A lot of ppl scolded me for letting it go..but it's my life).

After my degree, I went to look for jobs in MLT field.. search n search. Easily, I got a call from HSC med centre. Interviewed and got the job offered but there's a bond again.. swt, it's 3 years and the salary is RM1600 only. I personally like the hospital very much.. they have loads of equipments. They have the one and only machine to test biomarker C12 (which is one of the cancer tumour marker) in Malaysia. Meaning that if the other hospitals patients need to test for the C12 marker, the samples will be sent over to this hospital (it's a very interesting job n I'll feel proud working in that hosp.. haha~). The manager kept on persuading me to take up the offer after I've declined it by offering increment every year and they will give bonus, bla bla bla.. it's all attracting (it's normal to get those offers in other company too!) but the only thing that I'm afraid of is the length of bond. My friends and relatives kept on telling me to decline it... saying if you dont like the environment, how how how? 3 years lehh... not short.. somemore at the period of time, my aim is to get a car and do sales after 2 years. In the end, I still declined him...

At that same period of time, there's another job offer... which is to work in Ast as Cust Service Exec in their call centre. The pay is super attractive and they have a lot of incentives which can add up your pay to abt 3k per mth for starters.. attractive, rite? (somemore their bonuses can be up to 6-8mths salary! $$$ a lot!!) yeah, but that job is insane. It's an easy job where you only pick calls and talk talk talk.. but the thing is... it's unhealthy. I tend to get sick easily when I was there. I have problems with my digestion, I don't have enough nutrients in my diet... I don't have enough sleep... and I'm overly stressed! It's ok to get normal calls but when you get dispute calls, that's where your headache come from. Ppl shouted at you like you're a dog... ppl shouted at you like you have no value...and you can't even say anything/explain although they are wrong cos for them customer is always right (Somemore, you have to follow up with that case..meaning you don't only talk once with that customer but a few times...arrghh)What an unfair world it is rite? You wan to be fair? not in customer service line esp in A Call Centre..

From then on, I dislike talking to ppl... so during the interview for sales in pharma line, I get so annoyed and irritated by the managers from one of the international company. Went to a few more sales line and MediCare for interview... I was called for 2nd interview, but I've declined all... Got offered by MediCare, but decline again... So what I do I want actually? I dunno too.... I dont feel peaceful at all... seems like something is not rigth but at the same time, I'm frustrated too. Cos I wanted a job so badly and I wish to start work and save money and pay off my loan soon.

I believe God did guide me when I was looking for jobs... I prayed everytime before my interview and I wanted so badly for every job that I've gone for interview.  Somehow after my interview, I dont feel secure or peaceful. Why is it so? (God do gv us some hints sometimes, it's just that mayb we are the one ignoring Him )God did gaves me a lot of oppotunities in my life. He gaves us A but we wanted B. He gaves C but we wanted D. In the end, it turns out God is right. A and C might be the better choices for us.. but we never realise in the beginning and only after that we started to regret mayb.. Just like what Ps. Albert had shared with us, higher pay doesn't mean better. Sometimes lower pay, gives you a lot of benefits... mayb not on earth but in heaven. I really believe that God really wanted me to serve Him. He wanted me to spare some time for His ministry.. Working in Ast, definitely won't gv me that time.... n so do sales... yes, time for sales is flexible.. but things can turn the other way round when I needed to go for outstation/overseas.

In the end, He provided me a super hyper comfortable working environment with good bosses and colleagues. Some may say the management is not good, but I believe He can change everything if He wanted to. He always do things which is extraordinary and out of your expectation cos we can never know what He has planned for us. Our wisdom is just a small part of His wisdom. He thinks and plans way beyond ours... ^^. I do feel grateful for all He has done after all of my childish act for refusing to obey him. When we listen, He is willing to help us.. when we open our hearts, He is willing to fill us. When we offer our lives, He more than willing to provide us with everything that we need on earth and promised us treasures in heaven. Now, with my current job, I have plenty of time to prepare my things, I have plenty of time to read His words, I have plenty of time to pray, I have plenty of time to do His works (which is serve His ppl), I have plenty of time to spend with my family (on the phone of cos.. because I wont be exhausted and I still have energy to talk), I have better health, I have more friends, and finally I am able to become myself again after resurrecting from the zombie life. XD  I,now, feel closer to Him.... just like a rebirth in last ministry but I want more... more to be filled with him... more closer to Him... more so that I can b free in His Spirit and dwell in His presence. Thank you, Lord.. I love you.

Some snaps for you to see.. hahaha~~
1) My beloved bible after it dropped out from Kevin's car and got rain on for whole night.

**El-Shaddai means God Almighty**

2) The inner body of my precious bible (age: 13 yrs old).

3)The new appearance of my little baby.. ta-dang~~

**That fish thing symbol means Peace**

My baby is part of my companion for my everyday life now, even in office.. hehe~

Tuesday, October 5, 2010


I found this video very entertaining.. Hope u'll enjoy it too! Have fun...

p.s. Yes, I'm a lil bored in office. There's nothing for me to do at the moment. Done all of my things since yesterday. @.@ If you wish that I can help you with something, feel free to ask me. If I can help, I will. Cheers~

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Was lost but now it was found

Before I went out for lunch, my boss told me to lock the clinic's glass door too because it's friday and our staff have a longer break due to prayer time. So, I locked the clinic and my office glass' doors. Usually I only brought my office keys with me but yesterday was a little different. Instead of putting it back to my office drawer, I brought it together with me for lunch. Happily, I tagged it along in my cute and protective keychain (why do I say protective? cos it actually wrapped around the keys so that it doesn't makes any sound when you are walking - the cling-cling sound).

After lunch, Katie & I went back to her office and relax for a while but who knows  BK ffk (cos usually we have a prayer meeting on Fri). So, prayer goes on with the two of us only. Prayer finish on time..and I went back to my office as usual. As I was climbing the stairs, I realised that my key is no longer with me. In my hand, there's only my mobile phone and my money but where's my keys??

My mind just went blank and I don't know when and where did I dropped it... I asked Katie, I asked my sis... I even asked the maids... (T.T) In my mind, I kept on picturing my boss scolding me and never trust me again... I kept on imagining on how am I going to explain to my boss. I searched high and low for it... the whole left wing of the 2nd floor, the classroom, parking zone, canteen, and even the open area between the parking zone & canteen but I couldn't find it at all. Tears almost slide down on my cheeks... disappointment can be seen from my facial expression. Sadly, I went back to my office hoping that my office glass door is open and my colleague will tell me that he got my keys out of nowhere. Unfortunately, the glass door is still locked. Nobody is in the office. Instantly, I thought of calling one of my colleagues but my hand trembled when I tried to look up for his number in my phone. Another disappointment came, when I couldn't search for his number and even my other colleagues numbers (cos I panicked and I cant remember that I've added Mr. in front of their name). In the end, I tried to recall for one of their number (I had cold sweat and my heartbeat is increasing at that moment - this shows that I'm really panicked). Got it & called...

My colleague open the office's glass door for me (Luckily he didn't went out to KD or some other places. Or else, I'll be a dead meat...). Again we tried to recall where I've been and whether or not I've missed out some places.. but I've searched everywhere. Suddenly my sis called and asked me to ask the student service counter (before that, I've asked Sherrie where can I ask for Lost & Found.. is there any counter for that - but she told me there's none. If lost means it's really LOST! to my horror, O.O that's the end of my day) on the first floor.

**praying in my heart - God, I obeyed you..I went for prayer and I did not go anywhere.. but how come once I've finished eating, I did not see my key on the cafeteria table.. where could I possibly dropped it? I couldn't even find it my sis's office and not even in the classroom. Where is it, Lord? Can you please help me? Give me a good news..? You gave me a big responsibility holding those keys.. keys to my faculty office, keys to my clinics.. where there's a lot of money and expensive equipments. If I've lost it, the doors have to be changed... If I've lost it, the equipments and things will be possibly stolen..how am I going to stay on and work in this office. I prayed hard.. hoping for a miracle*

So, I went down and asked the lady. She smiled and went to the shelf near the 2nd counter and took something. Suddenly, she waived the thing... and ask smilingly, is this your key?? I recognised the purple keychain and was O.O screaming THANK GOD!! yes, that's my key!! My heart was full with joy and tears wear pouring in my heart. God did listen to my prayer... The lady told me that someone (dunno who) just dropped it at the last counter (the ptptn counter - not even the student service counter) and dunno how they passed it to the first counter (the student service counter). In my mind, God must have sent a good samarintan to pick it up from somewhere and left it with the counter. Gratefully, I thank God again and again... It was once lost, but now it is found.

God, I Thank You & I Love You deep in my heart~

Thursday, September 30, 2010

The Old Has Gone, The New Has Come

I'm not sure whether you realised that you can no longer view my space or not. Let me tell you, it's totally gone. My favourite video is gone too. You can't search for it anymore but luckily I have my videos in youtube. haha~ so, I'm sharing one of my favourite video with you here. To view more, go to youtube.com/chellrein . It's nothing special..just my own collections.

Here it is..

This is my last blog's appearance in space (Fortunately, I've taken a few pictures of my space while trying on something new in my mobile phone's camera). I miss it so much.... ='(

There goes my Chelle's Space forever

Oops... There's a chatbox (white box on the bottom right)! haha~~ That's when im chatting with Kenny via web messenger. He was teaching me photo shooting online. Grateful to have such a good buddy and wonderful/professional photographer/sensei. Arigato Gozaimasu!

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Welcome to My New Home!

Welcome buddies~~

I've just received a notification from Windows Live Space saying that I need to transfer my blog to wordpress or else, it'll be gone forever (XD no la... it's just I cannot post anything new after Jan 2011). So, to prevent from losing my blog again, I've decided to shut down the one in Live Space and continue it with Wordpress. Hence, here we are!! Hope you'll like it! (I'm still trying my best to work out with the settings/appearance..pls bear with me for this period of time).

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Red Dynamites

What's in your mind when i said Red Dynamites? Yes, the explosive chemical that is used to blow up something. I've been blown up by a few lately.. @.@ pity my purse.. it's bleeding now.


1st: On 3rd October

2nd: On 23rd & 24th October

3rd: On 6th November

4th: On 19 December


=.= can i scream for help? anyone willing to help me by sponsoring & subsidize me? or else, just help me with one thing... don't tell me there's more to come.

I'm pretty sure on 23rd Oct or 24th Oct, lotsa ppl going to ask when is my turn... Oh Goshhh... Yeah, I know marriage is a happy occasion.. I'm not complaining o wat. It's just that I feel a lil pity for my purse. Cos it's vomiting its whole edi. XD FYI, it's not that I don't want to get married.. just that, I don't think it's time yet cos i've just started my work not long.. plus I think 25 is still young. hahaha~~

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Things to update

I'm back with a few updates... first of all, I have a good news to announce. Chin Eng's brother Chin Wah has been transferred back to Seremban hospital after warded in normal ward (not ICU) a week. I've learnt from Chin Eng that his brother's condition has been stable and is recovering. From the report he received, Chin Wah might be able to regain conscious in 3 weeks (Doc said let it be 3 weeks trial first) and if not, most probably in 3 to 6 mths time. See, Our God definitely answer our prayers. God will definitely make a new way.. Scientist said no brain cell regeneration, I believe in God, there's always the possibilities of brain cell regeneration. God is always my answer. Seek him and he'll gv u the best of all. Thank you, Lord!


Secondly, my boss just informed me that the new staff, Ms. Abby had turn down the offer on the day she need to report in to HR. Sigghh... so, my workload still remain the same. No changes like what I've hoped for. Nvm, always give thanks no matter what happen. I'm glad that I can be different from other people. Always be the unique one, no complains but give thanks only. *still in the process of learning*


Today camp has just successfully wrapped up. Coming, is the Impact Camp... No position yet but I'm tied with the fees collection again. The camp will be on 28-30 Nov.. It's not that I dont want to go, is I dont think I can go... cos I dont have any leaves left... In addition, it will be right after I come back from taiwan trip, where I need to apply for an annual leave and an unpaid leave. So, to keep my reputation, it's better not to apply. Impact Camp is where the believers encounter God. I pray that God's presence will be with them that they will be filled with His Holy Spirit and annointing oil. Let the living water flows nonstop and believers will never be the same again. For their lives will be changed from that time onwards. Hallelujah!~


Christmas Drama, the long awaited event each and every year. We have just finish shooting some scenes. Hope the outcome will be great and people will be mesmerised and be touched by the whole story. Can't wait... Pray that it'll b a great revival wave...big wave which surfers love most! PUSH!! Pray pray pray~


Sunday, September 12, 2010

The BEST gift ever!

Do you know what's the best gift? Jesus! To Know God, Love by Him, Love Him Is worthy... Seek him first n everything will be given unto u...

He provided me a lot of things... He filled me with His Love once again.. He gave me something ahead of things that will happen. He gave me good news. He gave me security, etc etc etc... too much! I love Him cos He first Love me! I Love Him for He is real!

Here's some of His blessings for me.
1) He gave me a BIG raya hamper... although I dont celebrate Raya.
2) He answer my prayer.. (related to my family).
3) He gave me 1 week break.. (because He knew I'll be too tired and exhausted after the camp).
4) He gave me strength when I'm too weak n almost get sick - luckily only fever for 2 mid nites, the next day still can work. Strength to continue the things He wanted me to do (including buying/drawing/wrapping mugs, continuing in finalizing camp's stuff).

5) He allowed me to play rock climbing, leap of faith, n flying fox and not to be forgotten to climb the Broga Hill without spraining my ankle again... just a lil too tired. Muscle a lil cramp, got o-che(s) (dunno where i got it from), n i guess i used too much of my ankle muscle.. XD. So, aircast nid to be on for this coming week before I go for my follow up consultation this sat..? Following are the beautiful scenery God created for us. Enjoy~  (p/s with some faces of our Today Campers).

He is my provider...So, I gave my all to Him. Thank you Father for your loving kindness and blessings. Without you, Im lost..

p.s. I love the wonderful works He has done in Today camp too! He's just too marvelous! Too GREAT! I Love Him...
Of cos, I love you guys too~~ U r awesome too~

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Flashback & Let the Miracle starts

I have a flashback of what happened last year 30 July when I got the
call from Ps Meng just now. Same injury which is on the head. I really
don't hope for anyone to go through the same situation. One can be very
worried.. even when you sleep, you don't sleep soundly. Yes, we need to
be still cos God is always with us and He brings peace to us but at the
same time, demons will influence one by inserting negative thoughts.
That's why we asked for Prayers and miracles to happen. Together we pray
until something happen! We pray that his brother will be able to
overcome the obstacle and come to conscious tomorrow morning. Unity and
faith are the keys.

*Flashback refers to my previous blog "My last memory of her"..

I received the latest news.. He's condition is deteriorating. Flashback
began again.. I tell my Lord, I don't want these flashbacks. Please give
me a good news n perhaps a vision of him glorying God for waking up
again. Right after my first prayer, I received the second call of the
night from our dearly brother. For me, it's a good news cos I can feel
that the miracle is starting from the report given by the doctor.. cos
It's not as bad as my flashback..Thank you Lord cos He hears my prayer!
So, what we all can do now is continue to pray for him.. Pray until
something happens.  It's just the beginning of good news. Have faith n
continue to pray, my dear brothers & sisters.

Pray that He'll heal him just like what He did to Don Piper...

Friday, August 20, 2010


When I was browsing through my mp3 songs, I just realized that I have a song with the title of "Friends". I've lost contact with this song when I moved to KL to further my studies. So, I don't know how I got this song in my mp3. Maybe I accidentally save it? or maybe my friend save into it? who knows....  Okay, back to my topic... It was one of my favourite song back in 1999. Yeah, I know it was like 11 years ago..I remember that I used to sang it during my audition for my school choir because there's none other than this song that I know well and have confident in. This is the song that allowed me to experience the harmonize/melodious songs together with my other teammates although it was some stressful inter-school and national choir competitions but they were the most meaningful and memorable moments. I'm really grateful to God that He gave me all these opportunities to have all these sweet memories.


The one stored in my mp3 sang by Michael Smith but the one i used to listen back then was sang by some group like... Women of Faith?? or Women to women? I don't remember already. All I know is that it really touches my hearts and I do think it will touch your heart too. Because this song has a very meaningful lyric. You can really feel it! Emotionally FEELing it!! i mean it.... I'm so touched when I used to listen to it. It's about friendship. It's about Love. It's about how you treasure the friendship that you have towards one another. Although, we need to let go, but remember Friends Are Forever. Here is the lyric, I really hope it touches your heart..

Packing up the dreams God planted

In the fertile soil of you

Can't believe the hopes He's granted

Means a chapter in your life is through

But we'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong


And friends are friends forever

If the Lord's the Lord of them

And a friend will not say never

'Cause the welcome will not end

Though it's hard to let you go

In the Father's hands we know

That a lifetime's not too long to live as friends.

With the faith and love God's given

Springing from the hope we know

We will pray the joy you'll live in

Is the strength that now you show

But we'll keep you close as always

It won't even seem you've gone

'Cause our hearts in big and small ways

Will keep the love that keeps us strong





Monday, July 19, 2010


Today is the Day that the Lord has chosen! One of the Day for the lost soul to be home again. Yes, He answered my prayer and I'm overly joyful that His daughter has accepted Him as her Saviour! I won't be ashamed of shedding tears cos I know it's the tears of JOY. When we rejoice, the Heaven door is open and the angels do rejoice & praise God too~  Why I said it's one of the Day? It's because I believe there's more to come! Never give up, never let your faith down but instead steadfast, pray n have more than 100% faith for the Miracles are not done by you but by HIM who is in Heaven. You can never do it but He can! Believe and it will prosper!

In Ps. Philip's book, I've learnt the most important thing one should have in their Christianity life... which is faith! Faith is not a word that can be utter out easily.. but it's an action that believe things that will happen when you have no clue that it will really happen or not. Believing alone is not enough, prayer is the key.... Prayer is a communication tool where you talk to your Abba Father. I've prayed for quite some time that one day this friend of mine will accept Him as Saviour. Yes, prayer doesn't mean you'll get what you ask in an instant but it takes time. Cos this is the time when God helps you to open the way for them to get to know Him and to feel His love by rebuking and binding the demonic's barrier/action. Why I say demonic's barrier? It is the Fallen Angel (Satan) that is circulating the world. So, they will fight with God to ensure no lives are to be entered into the Heaven's Door by obstructing the ability of the lost one to listen to the word of God, closing their hearts, minds, ears and eyes. Thus, at this moment, you fight with Satan too! How? Faith and prayer! This is the spiritual warfare. You fight with Satan to get more lives into Heaven! Do not be afraid for God is with Us! Therefore, PRAY! PUSH (Pray Until Something Happens). This is why when she accepted, I cried with the tears of Joy. YES!! It's our victory! God's victory!! we got more lives into Heaven. So, Rejoice!!

--- I've learnt a lot from sermons, Christian books and articles. Faith and Love are the most important points in our lives. Be devoted to him and never stray away from Him. If you really did go off from Him, don't be afraid to return home. His door is always open for you cos His Love never fades away. Remember that... He touched my heart recently telling me He always loves me and He still accept me no matter how many times I left him, rebuked him, sins against him. I can tell you my sins.... It's countless! But the greatest things of all, He always forgives and love me. He does not only Love me but you too! All of us to be exact. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16  

I've left him before but Now I've returned. Why not you too?? Repent and return to your Heavenly Father.