Listen to Our Hearts

As you all have heard, as you all have seen in the news. People from another country had invaded to my homeland. Although it's far from my city (about 400km - 6 hours 25 mins drive / 1 hour flight), but we are all united as one. I don't know what to say about our Government or those people who claim our homeland as their land. BUT can't they listen to what we want? We are the citizen who live there. We are the one who grew up there. It's not up to their decision, whose land it belongs to. 

All we want is just peace. Since it's been ages we've called ourselves Malaysian and we are proud to have live harmoniously together with different ethnics and races peacefully for decades. So, let us be. We owned the land. Not people who have not live or grow up there, not people who suddenly invade and claim its theirs, or people who said they will do this and that but all turn up to be empty promises. I pray that my friends and all who live nearby the towns/island to be safe. I pray that all Sabahan be united as one and not be shaken by any parties. May the Lord reign in Sabah and reclaim our freedom from all darkness. 

Wow!

Feeling a little funny and of course proud.. =D

Yes, I miss being a Franciscan and I'm always proud to be one. hahahaha~

Didn't know that my junior, also from 3 Dynamic, produced this short documentary film about English language. I'm a proud senior?? XD You can see the tradition in SFC..ahaha.... the 38-ness, the craziness, the many action while talking, etc... lol~ Oh, Franciscan...

Actually, I was quite surprised to see this posted in SFC group page by my friend on 23 Dec (but I just watched it today >.<). I miss my English teacher, Mrs. Tok, she still looks young! Awww~~ It had been such a long time since I graduated from this school. Okay, enough of nonsense and craps... here's the video!

Enjoy English!~

The moments

Smile & Cheer up!
is what I told them.

The moment when I started our practice... felt anticipating and worried.
The moment when I finished choreographing... felt relieved and anticipating.
The moment when I'm anxiously searching high n low for the costume... worried and relieved.
The moment when I passed the baton to them to choreograph some dance... am really proud.
The moment when we first finished practicing the whole dances... joyful and excited.
The moment when we first did our flash mob in Sg. Buloh... anxious and crazy.
The moment when we continue our flash mob the 2nd day... more confident and joyful.
The moment when we first rehearsed... overly proud of my dancers.
The moment I visited them in workshop... they were so excited and I can't wait for them to show me what they've learned.
The moment when I received the news... disappointed but peaceful.
The moment I wrote to them... reluctant to post it up. Why?

It's all because I realized that they've grown so much! So much that I feel overly joy... so much that I just want to hug each and every one of them to thank and tell them... You did really well! They love each other, they support each other, they treat each other like their own flesh. We've become a very big family. How I wish I can see all of them perform asap but I know longer time means more patience, more practice, more time to brush up their skills, more time to prepare for the BEST that is yet to come. 

So, smile and cheer up! It's not the end but a longer pathway to the Best Production.
Yeay~ =D

For My Best Dancers

To my beloved DREAMS II dancers: 

AGain, I'm gonna say THANK YOU very much for all of your hardwork. I know I've been in ups and downs recently. My emotion wasn't that Okay.. so, I got a little angry and might have scolded you at some point. I'm really sorry! Indeed at one point, I nearly give up with the LED lights.. cos it was a little too last minute and it has been giving me a lot of problems here and there. How it burned you, how it does not light up, how awful it smells, how dangerous it is, how long it takes to fix one circuit....but through you who did not give up and because of your faith, we have successfully wrapped up the whole opening dance. Really grateful and thankful to have you all. 

The time you spent to do the LED lights till 2am in the morning, 12 am plus for a few nights in a row, and even till 4am in the morning.. the time you spent to do shopping right after classes to fix the costume, to buy the gloves, bandage, switch, wires, to charge the battery every 2 hours, to fetch and to send your teammates home... I owed you all a lot. Thank you so much for your patience, your love, your never give up spirit.. really Thank God cos you are the one that stays beside me all of the time. Helping me with this and that. Above all else, Thank God that you are safe and sound and none of you got burned by the lights. I know you have been struggling with the heat when you turn off the light on the actual day, how you tried your very best to tahan the heat it released, how you carry the battery at the back, how you tahan when the battery knock your head when you are doing your flips.. I saw what you did, I felt what you felt, to tell you the truth... my heart aches but there's nothing I can do except for thank you again and again. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. 

Without you all, DREAMS II will not have a good Opening Dance. 

You are my BEST DANCERS! Thank you!

**will try to get the complete group picture.. Seb, don't be disappointed**

A special day

It must have been a special day today..

Gave some advises to two different people this morning. Hmm.. They were like a sudden conversation. Have I serve my purpose of the day? or more to come for today?

I feel grateful to God that I'm still of good use. Told God plenty of times or should I say all the time, to use me.. Lord, I'm here.. I belongs to you.. use me as you wish. Thank you, Lord.

Thank God...

I Love you my lord, only you that I need. When I see your face, my life has been changed. Thank you, Lord Jesus.

3 hours of FUN

It was FUN yesterday... learning, teaching and practicing with 24 people at the same time for 3 hours. 

I know the time is a little short to learn so many steps and to get familiarize with your partner. But this is also the time when you'll build up relationships and see their funny/awkward moments. Haha~ But there's one thing I did not get it from them.... "stepping on each other's feet". From what I learnt from the professionals, beginner tends to step on each other's feet on their first lesson. So, imagine how clever they are....! 

For people who never dance before, indeed this is a big breakthrough for them. But I found it to be quite fascinating to see their spirits and the way they create their own style. The boys are the most incredible ones, they learned their basic steps from Eric, thus copying Eric's dance style... which is EXACTLY the same. I can't stop laughing at their way of dancing the moment I watched it. LOL! 

They are a few of them who made my day livelier... To name a few, David: the galloping master...Samuel: The master of "stealing chicken", and some admitted their own mistakes and wanted to repeat and repeat again. 

Although it's tiring... although I need to use all of my voice resulting a little sorethroat, but it's all worth it! Seeing how far is your accomplishment in just 1 day, I can't wait to meet up with you all again on coming Saturday for the 2nd lesson. Time to quickly wrap up everything and be prepared for the 7 July 2012! Shake the Stage with your swing dance! Impress them!~ Yeah!

New Record of Dynamites

Oh My! This year, it really breaks the record. 

I have 7 official dynamites bombing me in 2012! Pocket oso hangus oh... @.@ 

Why is everyone getting married in 2012? haha~ arhh.... dont ask me, "why isnt ur turn yet?". Well, i'm not ready to get hitch yet! I still hv plenty of things to do which is on the top of my priority list. nah... marriage? long long long long time lagi. Only when God say, "you are ready" then i'm ready! =D

November will be a super bz month for me. I can foresee the things we need to get ready for Christmas production, all the preparations and practices. Yet, I have 2 weddings to attend in just 1 week apart at 2 different places, Malacca and Ipoh. One on the north, the other towards the south peninsular. @.@ Really "pei fu" myself. haha~ Gonna get crazy soon.. looking for dresses will be a big headache edi. Or else, I might as well recycle my dress la. ^^ 

To those invitation that I have or will decline, really SORRY! I can't attend all cos ya know... I'm super BZ person. Can't drive or fly all the way to your wedding. Time is too short... how you wish you have 8 days in a week rite? but I can tell you that... even if you have 8 days a week, you'll still use it up like what you have done now. =D you wont? well.... I will. cos time is so PRECIOUS.... 

Time time time..... can you freeze? I cant, time mayb, but God definitely can freeze it for you! 

Money money money.... can you drop from the sky? I can't make it.. money cant fly itself to you, but God definitely can bless you through someone/something. 

All you need to do is Pray and believe!
So, you know, I know, God knows....
I'll Pray for Double/Triple blessings from God!
Since i'm blessing others, God please bless me more..... I need more of you to be able to bless others!
hiak hiak hiak~~ 7? masih ok la.... anymore? =X

Convent

I'm proud of my Franciscan friends.. Time flies~ 9 yrs in a blink of an eye. I do felt that we're getting old.. (i mean our age, but still young at heart. hahaha~ altho, some became mommy edi). lol~

Some became doctors, some engineers, some lawyers, some artiste, some lecturers/teachers, some dunno~ too many.. cant rmb! So proud of them.... All became more n more prettier each and every day. All u can see is..... sexay lady!~ XD

While I was browsing through some webpage, youtubes, look what I found! A very nice song... although I'm not very into Malay song.. but this one.. definitely a *thumbs up* song. I miss listening to her voice actually.. She used to sing Mariah Carey's song (cos that's her idol), she's one of our vocalist.. A soprano voice, can b soft, distinct, & powerful!

Following is the youtube video:

Another Franciscan vocalist, my senior, wow~ she's so famous among the orang putih now.. haha!

I miss The Bestarians, I miss SFC, I miss everyone in KK and I also miss KK's foods... ='(

Anyone coming? wanna tapao some food for me?? Errmm... I want dumplings, durian/choc swiss roll cakes, etc etc.

Life

Received a sad news... T.T...

Life is indeed very short. I dunno why life is taken away one after another in just a few years. Got to know a lot of ppl but also lost a lot of ppl that left some footprints in  my life. God gaves us lives but he will also take it away once the journey has come to an end.

Yeun Shin... She's adorable, friendly, humble and loves to smile. Although I didn't get to see her a lot of times, but her presence in iCampus, made it more lively. I thought i'll be able to see her when cg resume n when they're workload is not that much. She's a person who rather go to cg then to stay at home when she's very stress. =') really missed her. Her laughter is so cute... I bet her friends must be really sad and missed her a lot. She's just too special..

Yeun Shin, you'll forever be in my memory. Miss you..

Rest in peace.

His Voice

His voice is still loud and clear in my mind. The way he talks is so gentle...  Guess, I really missed him a lot.

I dreamed about him this morning (it was right before I wake up for work). He called me saying, "Michelle, it's okay. I'll fetch you today okay? Wait for me in the office after work. I'll fetch you to church." Thinking of going to bible class together. "Hm... okay but I can drive today. Tomorrow my turn to fetch u okay?" but he declined my offer. "No, i'll fetch you today and tomorrow. It's okay. I'm free.. n i feel better." "Are you sure? Are you really okay to drive?". I thought he is really here with us... I've totally forgotten that he has return to be with God.

I woke up... a lil happy and a lil puzzle. Then I realised that it was only a dream.. a dream that is so real. His voice is so real. He's still my best friend. A friend that will never say no and never fail to offer help. Miss him so much~

Rejoice~

A testimony that i've seen quite some time ago but it continue to touch me once again.. Be blessed through their life testimony, be blessed by God and grab the opportunity now! God Bless You and I love you all~

My dearest leader

I received the msg from his sister few mins after Father took him back.. was praying that time and I did not realised it until it was 20 mins later. Yes, indeed it is a good news that he is now away from pain and enjoying his eternal life in heaven but it's just too fast. Can't stop crying... my eyes are swollen and red now. All the way to his hse and coming back, my mind is filled with all sorts of memories.

Kevin is my best male buddy... He had helped me a lot. Although we've only known each other for 3 yrs, we've shared a lot. He's a very quiet guy and does not dare to speak wit new comers. It's because he was our iCampus unit 2's leader.. he need to talk a lot with us. He taught me a lot.. he adviced me a lot... we ate together... we laughed together.. we watched movie together.. he fetch me here n there.. n he even pulled me into the ministry. He was the one who first approach me to help with Port Dickson camp game (I dont even know anyone in church yet.. except for a few icampus frens n pastor), then help with make up, dance, etc.

When i'm at my lowest emotional state, he gaves me joke n advice me.. I rmb he told me... "it's a test from God". When i'm in need of help, he's the first one to offer.. the most unforgettable one is Connie's incident. He's the best gift from God. I can't thank him enough.. I owed him too much. Planned to treat him a good korean food buffet, but he was so bz after that... that we've no time to enjoy it. Till he was sick, I still dont hv the chance to treat him.

He's a funny and reliable guy... those guy that most ladies will fall in love with. His gf is so lucky to have him.. He once asked me... what do gurls like.. my gf loves baking cupcakes recently, do you have any idea wat to buy? haha~ I cant stop teasing him that time. We spent a long time in mph looking for recipe books and finally he bought one. He told me that he loves to do handmade things with creative idea but he complaint to me that his gf is not creative enuf and dont knw how to really appreciate things that he had made (eg cards). haha~ hmm... now I came to realise that he's kind of quite cerewet one. a lot of expectation... well, that's wat made him a good director rite? Even when he's sick, he still act like a big man in the house. Although he's anemic that time, he still kept on saying "I'm strong.. see, i still hv big muscle." He's so funny! Because he was bedridden, he wanted massage... complaining that his backbone is stiff/painful, he asked his sister to help. But because she couldnt reach the exact pressure point, he started creasing his brows and complaint. hahaha... just like a kid. I then helped him with some back massage. It's hilarious when he started saying... ahhhh... good good. very good.. hm... go up.. no no, let me think.. left, right, down.. I cant stop smiling while pressing the pressure point. He's like a king lying on the bed.. asking for servant to serve him. XD tat's my buddy! yeah~ 

So many words he spoke to me... I will never forget it. The way he encouraged ppl. the way he said sorry to me when he feel like i'm offended by his action during last christmas, the way he shared, the way he act like a big brother, the way he is as my best buddy... I can never forget it.

I was hoping that he will be healed... but God has his own plan in Kevin's life. He must have fulfilled it and that's why God took him back. I'm sad but I'm happy too. God planted him in my life... to be my best buddy (altho he's a guy.. haha) to change me into who I am rite now. Into a person who will never leave God again... Thank God. Most importantly, I wanted to say: Thank you, Kevin. You are the best!

Never stop believing.

I've been struggling whether I should blog this out o not.

It's not the time to keep on telling people that "it's the time".... "it wont help much".... "we know edi de la"... "he wont live long".  Who are you people? who are you to determine what God will do next? I'm quite frustrated actually... why cant you just build up ur faith n fully trust in the Lord? Why cant you just persistently beg God? Why cant you just pray to God all the time? You of little faith! Change! Pray undoubtedly! It's not the end yet! You are not God. You dont make the decision on behalf of God! Dont judge or make your own assumptions based on what you've seen and heard previously. God do things differently. He's wiser than all man on earth.. He created us, he turns water into wine, he raised the dead! Who are you?

I'm sorry if you said I am indirectly/directly scolding you. I believe in God.. I put my faith in Him, I put all my trust/hope in God n not in man/technology/doctor. God is the Best Healer! Don't say I'm childish or immature... This is what God teaches me.. Be still, I am God. I am the beginning and the end. He will do things in His way... a way that man will never fathom.

Kevin himself is very strong now. Why are u so weak? He said the tumour has bcome smaller, then why do u stop believing/doubting in God. see God's miracle.. altho it's small but you'll never know what will happen next. It's God's decision not yours. So, just keep on praying and believing. Kevin did not stop to ask God for healing, why would you stop? Arent you suppose to keep on supporting? Why waste ur time on being emotional, thinking of negative things, or the worst outcome, when it's not even the end yet? Why not invest your energy in praying/proclaming positively?? so STOP your mind from wandering all around now. PRAY! Pray until something happen! Never ever stop believing! Have faith in God, my dear friends.


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For my dear Joyce

Dear Darling,

This is super useful for you. I'll definitely get you one of this and buy other things. hahaa~~ Can't wait to see you. Really hope to fly back to see you now. *Hugssss* U & your lovely daughter has brighten up my day today. I just can't stop smiling.. I cant stop feeling the joy in my heart. Feel like it's leaping inside!~ Love you!! Not to forget... Jimmy, U r great too! Happy Fathers' Day & Happy being first time papa~ God Bless Your Family!

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CPM: Exit 出口 Successful~

I would like to thank all of my dancers, partner and CPM production crew. We've made it~ It was a successful and memorable production. Without one of you, things will be different. You've played a BIG part in making the event and of course the biggest and most important player is always Our Most High God and Holy Spirit. We alone are nothing but in God, we are everything.. His Spiritual flow and touch are the factors that moved all hearts. Thank God!~

I would like to personally thank Billy for enduring all the hardships with me. Doing all the difficult task that I myself could not believe I'm really doing it (cos we usually see those moves dance by all the professional dancers). A big thank you to Eric who choreograph the demon part and understanding the effect that I want...Yuan Qing for assisting Eric and helping me to keep all the demons accesories. Thanks to all small demons (Jeremy, Yuan Qing, Guo Hao & Ah Fai), although you are small demon BUT you are the one that lift the whole drama atmosphere to the climax.. I really thank all of you. Thank you Hosanna & Alix for helping me with the angel part (e.g costumes & ballet shoes) especially transportation. Without both of you, I'm sure all of the dancers will have difficulties with transportation. Both of you have been really understanding.. I'm really grateful. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thanks to all of my lovely angels (Alix, Crystal, Shao Qi,Chu Ling).. you've done well. Your Angelic look is finally in the EXIT. haha~ Thanks to Chu Ling.. I know it's been a lil hard for you. Cos it's a very last minute task..asking you to have an intensive training is really a big burden especially when I'm quite strict. I'm really sorry for pushing you so hard but I'm really grateful and happy that you can do it in a short time. *thumbs up* for you. Good Job!

To all of my dancers: I know I've been quite strict and fierce sometimes and pushing you all to the maximum is really "Sam fu" especially when I pin point people who did not do well. Really SORRY and hope you all will forgive me. Please do not take it into your heart and please smile and talk with me in the future okay?? =) Let's continue to stay like a family okay??

A msg from our producer, brother Kenneth, to all the dancers: Great Job for the spectacular performance. Pray that we can do greater things for His glory. God Bless..

To Liang Siong and Sebrina: Although both of you did not manage to join us in this production, please do not be sad and feel heart broken. We still have a lot of opportunities in the future. You two really did well in the practice, but we do understand that there are some things that we cannot avoid. Do not give up but put your hope in God. He will always open up a way for you when there seems to be no way. Remember this.. I still love both of you. Don't ever say that I've abandoned you..k? Jesus never abandon you, so do I. I'll keep my promise.

Thanks to all other Exit Production crew: You've worked hard! Thanks for all your effort.. Really thank God that I'm part of you all. haha~ We'll do greater things for Him in the future!! All Glory Be to God! Looking forward for Christmas event~

Everyone is tired... so, rest well and drink plenty of water. Weather is REAL HOT recently. Don't get sick. Keep your body in a good health and get ready for God's next plan. ^^

Shifting to a new nest

For these past 5.5 years, I've been shifting from one place to another place for like 6 times. This is the 7th time! My goshhh!! Now only I realized. @.@

Shifting is not a very good thing to do especially when u have to move like anually. Although some may say "treat it as an exercise". I tell u... It's like taking your life and squeezing you out of everything. Definitely a nightmare for me. Packing is tiring... moving things are tiring and even unpacking is tiring.

However, moving to this new nest is definitely a heaven for me i think. It's a well renovated hse.. feels like a real home but without complete set of house furniture. Hopefully, we'll hv a complete one in the future. I've bought so many things for this new hse.. New hse with new bed, mattress, pillow, aircon, washing machine...wow~ my life will b so comfortable! lol~

Then, we have a set of sofa given by church friend, a tv given by sis's ex boss, a friend given by God. LOL~ we hv new hsemate!! yeah~

My new hsemate is damn cute~ I've told her before that I was planning to buy the LG health deluxe aircon but I bought another brand last sat without informing her. I forgot actually... The delivery was supposed to be at 6-7pm today and they've said they'll call before they send it over. I did not receive any call except a msg indicating there's a missed call. I didnt return the call cos it's unknown to me. So, they called my new hsemate instead.

During the delivery, I think they asked my new hsemate where to put the things. I've bought two things which are two diff brands. I guess the guy must hv asked, "Ini LG letak mana??". Without actually looking at what it is, I think my new hsemate said, "LG? Oh.. LG atas atas."

After delivery she called n informed me that the things hv been delivered to our new hse. I was surprised at first cos it's earlier than the expected delivery time but shocked when I told her, I've bought another brand of aircon and that LG is supposed to be washing machine.. and it's mistakenly moved and trap upstairs now. LOL!~

I bet she'll b reading my post... so, I just wanns say... My new hsemate U are really super funny and cute~ My life will b awesome with u as a part of our new family. Can't wait to laugh my head off with you~

Buttercup BKK Advice

My friend told me about his incidents and here it is in his blog. Funny~ I can't just stop laughing at him. I told him... u hv the not so brilliant look. that's y u r easily targeted to be cheated. XD Have fun reading it and learning some easy thai phrases.

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T.T Let's Pray & Help.

Continuous Prayer is Needed

Let's continue to pray for Japan and for my cousin & sau sau.

There will be another monster earthquake within this few days. Highest probability is on Thursday which is 70%. Pray for their safety and enough food & supply just like the days where God feed His ppl in the desert. Currently... they will hv electricity cut off for certain areas from time to time. So, also pray that God's warmth is with them.. keep them warm & safe.

My beloved cousin & sau sau, please continue to update us your news from time to time and we'll keep you in prayer always. Keep your important documents with you and stay alert all the time. Ask for protection from God and hide under His Wings for you'll soar above all the troubles.

Also Pray for KK and all the neighbouring countries of Japan. Well, I do not know whether the news I've gotten last nite is trustable or not.... or it's just rumours. I'm not sure.. but we'll pray for God's mercy on all these countries and our beloved homeland, KK. okay?

Prayer

If you are reading my post, I'm asking for your prayer...

My cousin and his wife is currently in Japan. As you've heard, Japan just had a massive earthquake & tsunami. Both of them are separated at the moment. Cousin was stuck in Yokohama and sau sau in Tokyo. She is currently in M'sia Embassy as all things are in chaotic, no eletricity and train is not functioning. My cousin couldn't reach her and sau sau's phone is dead. She can only update her status from time to time using the M'sia Embassy staff iphone.

Please pray for their safety and God's mercy on Japan. Pray that God will keep them safe. TQ my brothers and sisters in Christ. I love you all.

Reiner & Alice, you'll be fine~ Immanuel!