My February

1st Nite after return home, dinner with daddy..

Then, groceries shopping with family & aunt... Look what we've found!! A super cute vege...it's flat and in various sizes. Big & small~ and it's name is "Ta Chai" means big vege (I think..^^)

My messy room after I returned home from CNY.. sighh... Disturbing images. They even flip my pillow..

Sis's room... far more better than mine but one of the wardrobe fall and obstructed the passageway.

 On that same day after making police report, we went off to Ipoh... Here's wat we have for our breakfast the next day. Yum yum~ Forgot all about the messy house at that moment. Thanks to Katie & her dad for bringing us to Ipoh Yong Tau Fu site where we had asam laksa, yong tau fu, ice blended drink, crispy fried prawn cracker, etc etc...

Our Puchong Evangelistic Meeting... performance by Jessie, Jason & Terence....

DF Lao Shang Day... The sentul+KD+Puchong group. XD So healthy... all fruits & vege.

My department special CNY lunch at Valencia Clubhouse... They have nice golfview, swimming pool, cafeteria, locker room, jacuzzi, sauna, function room, gym room, hair saloon, laundry, souvenir shop, market and also florist.

Look what I had for my lunch in the mid of february..sighh... Newspaper in my fried omellete and cooked worm in my vege. (-.-|||) faint ar~ Somemore it's chinese newspaper clip lagi..

Well, that's my super happening february.. U can see lotsa things happening in my february. So, how will my march be?? Any idea? 

Trials

You might have heard a lot of things happening to me lately.. I, myself, did not realize it until one of my close friend told me that she's worried about me cos there's just too much things happening around me. I really thank all of my friends who concerned about me. All I can say is...Arigato Gozaimasu. I'm really grateful to have all of you.

Starting from our dear brother's health to the break-in, sickness (headache, dizziness, flu, nose block, sorethroat, coughing, backache, insomnia) affecting me, dad's injury on the head, newspaper and cooked worm in my lunch, car accident (never thought that I'll have accident right? =) this is my first accident - after 9 years of driving skill..not bad, huh? ^^).. it's just too much. All I can do is give thanks to God and continuously hold unto Him without any doubts.

I believe all these are just trials to test my faith and trust in Him. I believe it's God's plan for me to offer all of my all to Him on last sun too. I initially thought he wanted me to offer what I think the amount is.... but he actually wanted all of my all.. all of my trust and things to live on. Now, without any car, without much money to use or survive for this month, I believe He wanted me to fully trust in Him. 

Why I say without money... it's not because I paid off the accident. No... Initially, I took all of my money from the atm to pay off the accident's summons or etc etc... (after returning from police station, Jacob return it to me without actually telling me he did not pay anything yet but instead he told me everything settled). Without me realizing, I accidentally offered everything and only realized it a day after... haha~ but let me tell you something, I did not regret, I did not worried, I did not blame anyone after the super dramatic day, I still felt surprisingly peaceful.

Last sunday night, Jacob asked why do I seem like there's nothing happening to me at all... like I still can go on with my life without actually showing my ups and downs or things im struggling on. Well, I am not happy in the beginning, not because I'm traumatized by the accident but some other issues, but because I knew I need to worship Him no matter what happened, I started to let go off everything.. Let go of my emotion, let go of my hard feelings, let go of my concern, let go of my disappointment, and be filled with His love, be filled by His presence... In the mid of worshipping Him, He told me... I am your answers. I am the answer for your life. Hold on only unto me...  So, cling on Him no matter what happens. No matter your problem is big or small.. Hold Him tightly and never let go. He will provide everything that you need. He'll do miraculous things for you and me.

**after losing my lappie, I thought I've lost all of my pictures including some memorable ones. Some I've posted in my blog but however, while transporting my prev blog to the current blog, some images are lost and cannot be shown here. While browsing through my hotmail space drive, I found some really memorable pictures - including Connie's pic. She's such a beautiful girl.. wish I can edit and reimport it to that post or a special new post just to remember her? =) Finding these pics are something that comfort me.. hehe~

Things to remember:

- If you are able to cross over the trials, your new chapter of life will begin.

- He's my shelter and comforter, nothing will be against me.

He's a Gift from God

He is a gift from God to us. Back in 2009, it was the period of time when I actually really get to know him. He is my cell leader, a leader who is very very responsible and reliable. He is a very shy and introvert person but due to our talkativeness, he started to talk and joke with us in the car whenever we went out for dinner after cell. Connie and Chin Eng always gave him some lame jokes and he picked up from there.. starting to be super "fei" too. It was indeed a joyful period of time until Connie's accident happened.

Her accident brought our relationship closer like a family. Whenever we have difficulties, he is the first person to help and always say yes to our request. Although he's young but being the eldest son in his family, it created his good and reliable characteristics which earned him a lot of admiration and respects. He was the one and only person who directly offered me help during that incident. Coming all the way from Puchong to Tmn Melati in the middle of the night to fetch me to the hospital. Staying overnight with me in the hospital underground level, waiting for the completion of operation, accompanying us to wait for the reports..slept for 1 hour only for that 2 days.. proved that he is a Good Man.

He is very talented in directing skills. He once told me that he is interested in pursuing Cinematography. He directed a lot of dramas in our church. The biggest and latest production was 4320. We're proud of him and the CPM team. He was restless and stressed but he neither complaint nor scold his team for being late sometimes. He was sick at that period of time but he did not take off day from his work. He is definitely not a workaholic but due to his working environment, he was forced to even work on public holiday.

When I was sad and stress over my house issues, exams, ministry, he is the one who cheered me up and gave me advice. I wanted to do the same for him now. I knew he is feeling down when I talked to him. He sound low in spirit.

He was recently diagnosed with Familial Colon Cancer and recent report stated that it is in stage IV and had metastasized to liver. I've seek advice from Dr. Lim a special researcher in cancer field. When she heard about his condition, all I heard was gasping. I knew it in my mind that it has gone to a serious stage. Dr. Lim adviced to get treatments asap and to cut out the colon. If he really wanted to opt for cyberknife, seek advice from the specialist asap and weight the benefits of both treatments (colectomy and cyberknife). Doctors will normally give the solutions where they are more specialised in and have more confident (cos of higher success rate he had done in prev patient).

Oh God, he is a humble man of yours and he is still very young. He directed dramas, the calling that you've planted in his life. Let him continue to testify you, Lord, in both ways.. in health and in drama production. I believe in You! You are the Way, the Truth and the Light. In You, we found the path to salvation.. In you, we found miracles.. In You, we believe all extraordinary things will happen. He is a GIFT from you to us. A friend who cherish us, a friend who makes our lives different, a brother whom we love so much. Heal him, O Lord. You are Jehovah Rapha, God who heal.. We want miracles to happen. We pray to you, O Lord, hear our prayers and our sincerity. We believe all the treatments are beneficial in prolonging his life and you will use him to testify your name and power to the whole world until the day you come again to save us. O Lord, answer our prayers, answer my prayer.

If you wish to help him or buy him some foods like I do, buy the list of food or nutrients listed below (this is the food that help inhibits/prevents cancer cell):

• Colourful fruits and vegetables - especially red grapes with seeds.
• Whole grains - pasta/bread/rice.
• Calcium - supplements or dairy foods (cheese/yoghurt) -->Less
• Green tea (not fermented type)
• Vitamins and minerals (such as folate, Vit D or E, selenium).
• Celery (got selenium).
• Garlic
• Nuts.
• Raw honey.
• Less protein.

List of No-no food:

• Milk.
• Meat
• Fish
• Egg (especially egg yolk)
• Proteins (black beans, tofu, peanut butter)
• Gingko biloba (Bai guo)
• Mushroom.
• Foods/drinks that increase blood circulation or help build cell/tissue.

Phobia

Every time, when I happened to bump into thief, I may have a sudden energy in me to get me brave enough to chase after or to scold them. I may look tough but honestly, I'm getting the feeling of insecurity after each incident. The first one, after the snatch theft, I've stop myself from stepping into amusement park (where you have a lot of ding dong games). The second incident, the brave thief who climbed up to my condo window at 13th floor, I've been super alert, getting insomnia, and kept on peeping at my window for any sign of shadow... it has been a restless night for few months. The third one, thieves broke into my house, stealing my lappie, cash, golds, and my pictures are making me feeling more and more insecure. I did not realize my pictures were gone until I started to clean up my things and re-arrange the items. This is bad... I don't feel secure at all. I used to love to be alone at home but now... I don't dare at all. Are they maniac?? Oh God, will you please help me? I need the feeling of security.. I need your protection. I'm scared (although I hate to admit it) =( . 

I wanna move out asap.... I don't want to be alone at home, I don't want to go out alone anymore... all sorts of crazy thoughts, please go away.... Looking at my partially mess up room now is very disturbing. All of my CNY mood is gone. Get rid of my phobia pls.... 

I want Blessings!!

Last year on the 2nd day of CNY, my elder sister's hp was stolen by a thief coming in to my house on broad daylight and stole the phone without anyone noticing. Sympathize with sis, I sacrifice my Sony Ericsson hp to her (cos I hv 2 hp that time). Stuck for 1 hp with one mobile number for a year till now.... wanting to get a new hp but still considering which brand is okay.. 

Very unlucky..same thing.., this year 2nd day of CNY it happens to me, thief broke into my house.... the west M'sia house. sigghhh... My laptop gone, my gold necklace with 3 pendants gone... I dunno what else is gone. I know you'll definitely ask, "Why you left your laptop in your house??". Well, firstly... it's about time that laptop need to be formatted and fixed cos the internal clock battery is about to die I think.. it's getting weird; we need to carry 2 laptops back to hometown. So, I was thought it was unnecessary to bring it home as I dont use it at home when I already have another laptop with me (but this laptop does not belongs to me and it cost much more expensive than mine). Thus, very unfortunately, thief got my laptop for free. When we got the call from our neighbour, I was like... Oh gosh, dont tell me our house was broke in and my laptop.... sighhh... 

Neighbour tried to make a police report and supposingly the police need to take pictures but because we're not at home, they said need to wait for us to get back. bla bla bla..... So, all things are on hold now. Oh goshhh.... I really dunno wat to say when I heard it. 

If you ask whether I really feel down and angry, I will say... a little only. I dont really feel sad. I dunno why... I'm sad because I bought my Laptop at RM3600 and it was gone in a snap of finger. But why I dont feel really sad is because I've already planned to buy a new laptop for myself... and planned to lend that old laptop of mine to my sister since she doesnt have one. Very unfortunately, I cant do it anymore... My gold necklace gone..just buy a new one lo... I'm just sad because it's a gift from my mom and aunt. I can't never get that same necklace anymore since it is a 1-month-old-birthday gift.

Well, since things are stolen and cannot be replace... we'll just let go and forget. But how secure will I feel when I get home, I'm not sure... I'll just pray for God's protection and let me sleep soundly at night. Since it's CNY and it's a brand new year.. God, I want double blessings!! My things are stolen...but I believe God will provide better things for me! Provide more than enough for me! 

Malachi 3:10-11 (New International Version, ©2010)

¹⁰ Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the LORD Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it. ¹¹ I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not drop their fruit before it is ripe,” says the LORD Almighty.